"How do I love thee? Let me count the ways"... gorgeous and assertive adult uke?, checked! Gorgeous and refined adult gentleman seme? checked! consensual instantaneous combustive level sex? hell yeah (wiping sweat)!, checked! Seme courting Uke? yaaay! checked! motto motto motto motto kudasai!!
WOW!! Words cannot express how immensely I enjoyed reading this manga. I was hooked from the very beginning due that it made me feel as if I was witnessing the budding romance of two teenagers in real life. The awareness, the anxiety, self-consciousness, the innocence; everything, I adore it to its molecular level ヾ(☆▽☆)
You can buy volumes 1 thrugh 6 from http://www.junemanga.com for $7.95 per volume PDF file, which is a bit cheaper than the $9.99 from amazon.com kindle file. I then got raw volumes 7, 8 and 9 from amazon japan.
so juné wont release vol 7,8,9??? But why, im so sad TT_TT
Even though I struggled with the story's hardcore acts of sadism, and found it hard to understand the exact psychological trauma that triggered Sarasa's over the top sadistic behavior, I have to say I'm glad I stuck with it till the end. There's a lot of things I didn't feel comfortable with, also, I wondered how was it possible that the path of all of these people with deep psychological issues coincidentally converged so perfectly, but I guess I should just attribute that to yaoi logic. I found this story fascinating, if difficult, and my romantic sensibilities were very much satisfied with happy ending of the poly-amorous threesome of Sarasa, Kazunari and Haruki.
I read Sarasa as having been born different, not having experienced a trauma. Like psychopathy, it's not a disease, there is no cure but there are physical differences in the brain.
O.o... I thought I had read everything, ouch! LOL! I found it hot and sexy, though, the 1000 things that could go wrong with that type of urethra play notwithstanding :D
I really enjoyed it, not for the sex, since it's softcore, but for its comedic aspect. The narcissist uke and stoic methodical seme had me rotfl! especially during their sex scenes :D
After these latest episodes my perspective on Siwoon has shifted a bit more towards the positive and I'm happy that we have been given a glimpse into Taemin's feelings for Woojin as a child; however, I'm still mourning for poor real Siwon; I guess several of us just can't get over how poor Siwon has been treated as a non-issue in the story when the poor thing was the victim of so much injustice. Maybe those of us that can't get over it should start an association for the rights of Siwon (AFROS), hahahaah! just kidding on the AFROS thing, but I'm serious about my heart bleeding for real Siwon :(
On the other hand, this episode shifted my perspective on Woojin/Siwoon. I was upset for a long time at the fact that Siwoon seemed to have had the resources to find and help Taemin but didn't, and after the latest chapter, I think that he was blocked by several factors, one of which is psychological. Woojin must have been operating from a defeatist mindset after that traumatic episode where he thought Taemin was going to die because of him. It's obvious he was seriously impacted and seemed to have become obsessed with thoughts of worthlessness and not having the resources to protect Taemin; soon after that he disappears. We can speculate that either Woojin precipitated a reunion with his father/grandfather? or that either of them came looking for him right at that moment; whatever the case was, Woojin felt compelled/obsessed to become "someone" and obtain the "means" or resources (wealth, power, etc.) he could use to protect Taemin. It could be he didn't show up before that because he felt he wasn't ready "yet" to offer something substantial to Taemin, and when he was finally ready, it was tragically too late. I have now become more sympathetic towards Siwoon and ship the relationship a bit more. Even though I still can't get over his indifference when watching Siwon's rape video.
Another thing that I really enjoyed about these three last backstory episodes is that we were allowed to look into Taemin's perspective and his feelings for Woojin. Before this, we had a clear understanding of Woojin's feelings for Taemin, hero-worship that turned into obsession and ultimately love; but we had not been given access to Taemin's feelings until now. It's obvious why the children gravitated towards each other as they shared similar abusive backgrounds, even though their personalities were like night and day. But it made me very happy to see Taemin just as obsessed with Woojin as Woojin was obsessed with Taemin. This leads me to believe that Taemin was also in love with Woojin ever since they were kids. I guess we could debate on the substantiality of childhood love, but there's no doubt in my mind Taemin was in love even if he himself didn't realize it then or now, so their feelings were mutual :D...and soon their feelings as young adults promise to be mutual as well. That would also explain why Woojin's disappearance affected Taemin to the point he still resents Woojin and hasn't forgiven him. His reticence in trusting and admitting to Siwoon that he's indeed Taemin is very likely rooted in his resentment for having being "abandoned" by both Woojin and his mom.
I see a lot of my fellow fujoshis/fudanshis harshly criticize/condemn Taemin's mom for abandoning him, and I used to feel the same way. I had no patience or sympathy for mothers that abandon their children because I can't identify with that type of mindset, especially due to possessing an assertive personality, but my perspective was expanded in college through the social sciences. I learned that even though all humans possess the same cognitive framework and many of the cognitive processes, these are ultimately influenced and shaped by our experiences and environment. The cognitive development is different for everyone, with those living in poverty at the losing end. So, the cognitive, emotional, psychological development of those of us that have lived sheltered lives is significantly different from those that have been exposed on a long term basis to poverty and physical and mental abuse. In this case, we cannot judge Taemin's mom based on our own personal sheltered and privileged life experience because our mindset and moral framework could never compare to her's, because we have been socially shaped under asymmetrical circumstances. The truth is that we just don't know how we would react if we had experienced extreme poverty and physical, sexual and mental abuse because our socialization and cognitive processes would have developed differently. I don't agree with what she did, and my heart is broken for poor Taemin, and it conflicts with my opinion that motherly instinct is the strongest human emotion, therefore, how could she have ignored her instincts to protect her son? but in the spirit of fairness I cannot judge her because I have no idea what it feels like to be in her place. The fact she couldn't help touch her son one last time leads me to believe she must have been heart broken, or at the very least, it must have been extremely difficult for her; well, at least that's what I hope for the sake of Taemin. I truly believe his mom loved him. This part is always difficult, my heart can't stand the thought of innocent children being abused. I broke into a thousand pieces during those scenes with Woojin and his mom and Taemin and his dad, I just can't take it!
I know, ultra long post, but this is how much this manhwa affects me, it really makes me ride the feels! (≧∀≦)
Oh boy, chap. 13 is fucking p.a.i.n.f.u.l, brace yourselves for it...BUT, just like OMG says below, don't give up, even though some readers will never fully accept Jaeha (￣∇￣")
:/ Feels as if Mashima suddenly realized it was the night before the deadline and this is the result...
I still love you Fairy Tail, I'll hang on till the end waiting for my Nalu ship to officially set sail (〜￣△￣)〜
Yes, this is a comedy with a dumb plot with a lot of nonsensical situations; however, even if it's just a mediocre to average smut, it commits the worst offense of all for fujoshis/fudanshi that are hard core romanticists and that is cheating. The uke cheats on the seme without basis or consequences. So, if you're a hard core romanticist, this is not the manga for you; irrespective of its comedic nature, the cheating will piss the hell out of you. Save yourself the heartburn :D
Thank you(づ￣ ³￣)づ
I thought that was more like rape.