This is a very sweet story about human connection where the sex is secondary. It is slow-paced and soft toned, which gives it more credibility and makes it very pleasurable to read. The interaction between the two leads is very lovely, sweet and romantic and that is what makes it so engaging despite its slow pace. Definitely recommend it!
You nailed it. This one's special and deserves the highest rating.
CHAPTER 28…ROUGH (VERY ROUGH) TRANSLATION with GOOGLE TRANSLATE. DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE (POSSIBLY) UTTERLY SPOILED:
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(The chapter opens with Hanjun and Jaeha making out on the sofa. While being kissed, Jaeha seems to resist Hanjun a little)
Jaeha: “Hanjuya”… (As he turns his face away and Hanjun draws him back into the kiss)
(In the next scene they are no longer kissing and Hanjun’s cheek is red, implying that Jaeha slapped him to make him stop.)
Hanjun: “Isn’t this what you came for?” *meaning to have sex * (we must assume he’s saying this angrily to a Jaeha who looks shocked at being told that truth)
Hanjun: (grabbing Jaeha’s face forcefully) “Have you ever sought me out for any reason other than this?” (Again, meaning sex) “It’s always been ok for you to use me whenever you’ve felt like it, so do you think you have the right to refuse me?”
Hanjun: “am I wrong?”…(waiting for Jaeha’s response)
(WE THEN GET FLASHBACKS FROM JAEHA’S POINT OF VIEW OF ALL THE TIMES HE USED HANJUN FOR SEX AND TREATED HIM CALLOUSLY. AT THE END OF THE FLASHBACK, JAEHA HAS THE LOOK OF SOMEONE WHO JUST HAD AN EPIPHANY, LIKE “HOLY SHIT, I JUST REALIZED I’VE BEEN A SELFISH ASSWHOLE ALL THIS TIME!)
Hanjun: “If you’re ok with it, then just enjoy it”…(and they resume their make out on the sofa, and we can infer Jaeha is going along with it out of a sense of guilt, after realizing that everything Hanjun told him was true.)
(NEXT SCENE IS A CLOSEUP OF JAEHA TREMBLING AND COVERING HIS FACE AS HANJUN IS LICKING HIM AND TOUCHING HIM; AN OBVIOUS SIGN HE’S NOT ENJOYING IT AND HANJUN NOTICES IT, AND SEEMS TO RECONCILE HIMSELF WITH THE FACT THAT HE WON’T BE FUCKING JAEHA THAT NIGHT, AND MOST LIKELY EVER AGAIN.....I HOPE!)
Hanjun: “Let’s stop” “I’m sorry” “…trembling like that…”
Hanjun: “Drink and relax” handing a cup of coffee to a dazed Jaeha
Jaeha: “I suddenly wondered how I looked when I met Hyeseon” (Yeah, suddenly, as in after that girl told him that he “looked” happy with Eunho. He wants to know if he looked the same way when he was with his ex-wife)
Hanjun: (super rough translation here, not sure if accurate at all) “That time I saw you kissing in the fireplace, you looked embarrassed” (I assume he’s talking about Hyeseon and Jaeha kissing? and if this is accurate, than that means that Jaeha never looked as happy with Hyeseon as he does with Eunho)
Hanjun: “Do you care about that guy?” (Meaning Eunho)
Jaeha: (visibly distraught, trembling a bit) “It hasn’t even been a year…does that make sense?” (Meaning his divorce) “It shouldn’t be so easy to like someone else so soon, but this is not just someone, this is Eunho” “Eunho is like my little brother, whom I took care of since he was a little kid” “When my parents divorced, Eunho’s parents took me in and treated me like a son” “Can you imagine? “How can that be acceptable?” (rough translation here, but we can infer Jaeha is implying he feels like he’s betraying the kindness he received from Eunho’s parents by loving and sleeping with their son)
Jaeha: (extremely distraught, crying profusely and trembling) “I already hurt Hyeseon…I don’t want to hurt… (Unfinished thought, but he’s obviously saying he doesn’t want to hurt Eunho)
Scene closes with Hanjun hugging/consoling Jaeha
No time to write the rest of the dialogues so I’ll just summarize what little is left of the chapter:
In the next scene Jaeha is in a taxi and finally talks to Eunho on the cellphone, whereby Jaeha is acting all sweet to Eunho, so sweet that it makes poor Eunho nervous! cause the poor thing is not used to being treated sweetly, and Jaeha starts talking dirty to him, telling him how the sex in the car wasn’t bad at all, that he started masturbating as soon as he got home, and how excited he gets when Eunho is inside him… (I’m not making this shit up! And Jaeha is saying all that shit in front of the taxi driver…like WTF! LOL! I was actually feeling second-hand embarassment for the poor driver! LOL!)
Of course all that dirty talk has poor Eunho about to shoot his load with the bursting pressure of a fire hose, so he demands to know where Jaeha is (for the obvious reasons) and the chapter ends with the two of them meeting and hugging sweetly.
Please take all of the above with a grain of salt, but it should give you the gist of what’s going on. I can’t can’t wait for the translation, because if the a 3rd of the above is accurate, then I feel somewhat satisfied because we finally get to understand the specific reason why Jaeha has been fighting his feelings for Eunho so adamantly and for so long; because he thinks he’s betraying the trust and love Eunho’s parents gave him by loving/sexually desiring/fucking their son; and the chapter validates my own personal conjecture that Jaeha has been in love with Eunho, or at the very least sexually/emotionally attracted to him since they were young, most likely around the time high school Eunho confessed to him, whereupon soon-after Jaeha married Hyeseon as a limiter, to put a barrier between him and Eunho. This chapter made me a bit more sympathetic towards Jaeha.
Tahnk u i have see all the raws but i can't undestand can you please translate more?
Hi, berni! Unfortunately, I really can't :(
I lack the time, but sometimes I get a bit impatient and tackle a chapter with google translate for myself and if I get a bit of time, share it here with others, but these are very rare instances for me. I wish I had the time, though :)
It ok
First off, thank you for the spoiler alert! Second, I was admittedly ready to drop this story. I've seen enough in my day *looks waywardly at the sky*, and I'm a bit worn down by the dramatic ups and downs of manga where people go back and forth between lovers, especially with something as intimate as sex. So by reading your rough translation of the next chapter, it's given me a liiiittle bit of hope that it won't be another back and forth that makes my stomach hurt from the vicarious jealousy and sadness. orz Thank you for your hard work!!! ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
So at the end of the special chapter, Woojin wants Taemin to do "Aegyo" and I was like, wtf is that? and after I researched it, I was like O.o .. hahahaha! rotflmfao
imagine Taemin doing that! No way! hahahaha!
For those that want to know what Aegyo is and looks like, you can go here. Watch the entire video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQJ0b7lSoXU
Being a kpop fan, I knew all about it but I was never a fan of it. It's kinda cringe-worthy when you see your manly bias trying to act hardcore cute. But Taemin's aegyo would be priceless!
I can't even! LOL!!! Taemin is such a little alpha macho! But yeah, precisely because of that it would be priceless :D
Wow, I really dislike...no, more like, detest, Jaeha so much for being so fucking indecisive and weak. Really? just because Eunho didn't pick up one freaking time, it's his green light to run and get fucked by Hanjun? not to mention that not only would that be cheating on Eunho, but it also means shamelessly using Hanjun when he knows how the man feels about him; and that he is the one that has pushed Eunho into a corner for refusing to define their relationship because he's too much of a coward to face his feelings. I mean, what the fuck is holding him back? why so much dramatic vacillation on his part regarding his relationship with Eunho? it's not like they're blood relatives , or that Eunho is a minor (not that such things matter in Yaoi)...what is it, Jaeha? what the fuck is it! If it's so painful for him to be with Eunho, then he should do the kid a favor and definitively break up with him, instead of stringing him along, using him as his personal ego booster. Like I've said before, Jaeha is an egocentric bastard that doesn't care how much he hurts the poor fools that end up caring about him; it's all about him him him him him and only him and his senseless "turmoil", which is nothing but cowardice. Eunho, please walk away, this bastard will only bring you heartache... (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
Hes not cheating if they arent in a relationship and you're acting like its all jaeha fault. Eunho can walk away anytime but chooses to stay, and he pushed all his feeling onto him. So theyre both at fault
Jaeha promised Eunho he would be the only person he sleeps with. So... It's kinda cheating
You do know he promised while having sex, having said that people can say anything at the spur of the moment plus he kinda forced that promise on him
Aren't you a bit hard on Jaeha?
I say he will not sleep with Hanjun.
You'll see....Jaeha 'll figure out who
he really loves.
Are you truly that undiscerning? at the most elementary level, it has become apparent that they are involved in a sexual relationship, that whether it has been defined or not, to both Eunho and the readers, it holds great significance; and the character of Jaeha, better than anyone else knows the depths of Eunho's feelings for him; so yes, it is cheating, irrespective on whether they are "officially" going out or not, precisely because Jaeha **knows** how much that would devastate Eunho. And because he holds that knowledge, the ethical thing for him to do would be to either put an end to his sexual relationship with Eunho or refrain from sleeping with others so as to not hurt Eunho.
And no matter how subjective one's viewpoint may be, it is pushing the boundaries of subjectivity to say that Eunho pushed his feelings for Jaeha; when did he push his feelings to Jaeha? when did he "harass" Jaeha? all Eunho did was confess to Jaeha when he was young in high school, and again, upon being reunited, when Eunho joined the art school; but confessing his feelings to Jaeha is not the same as "pushing" his feelings, or harassing Jaeha with his feelings. He confessed and then stayed around Jaeha, passively trying to convey his feelings towards him; and soon Jaeha became conscious of him and gave him an opening, irresponsibly accepted to have sex with him, despite knowing how much this kid has always loved him and how much he could end up hurting him. And let's not forget the times when Eunho has tried to put and end to his feelings and Jaeha has not let him; pushing him away only to selfishly reel him back again; and because he is the one holding the power in the relationship, because Eunho is in a subordinate position because he is vulnerable to his feelings, it is Jaeha's responsibility as the older of the two and as the one in power to end it with Eunho. Yes, Eunho bears responsibility for his own actions and he does have the ability to walk away, but it is obvious that he won't, because again, he loves Jaeha too much, he is vulnerable to his feelings for Jaeha, which conversely, so is Hanju. They are both emotionally subordinate to Jaeha; therefore, it is Jaeha's ethical responsibility to put them out of their misery; and why is this, you might ask? because the empirical data has already shown that the individual that loves the most, is the one that has less power in a relationship, and inversely, the one that is less committed is the one that holds the greater power. You can research this on your own to understand about power and social influence in relationships.
And finally, from the reader's perspective, this is a romance story whose leads are both Jaeha and Eunho, so in the reader's consciousness, this is a romantic relationship, and sex with anyone other than with each other will be construed as cheating, and this is not my opinion, but facts, as those are the psycho-dynamics of the romance genre. That is precisely why you see and will continue to see readers being ok with the different taboo sexual kinks in yaoi, but start writhing in agony and howling like banshees every time one of the lead characters has sex with someone other than their respective romantic leads, because Yaoi (and any other romance fiction) is above all about the romance (cherry topped with a myriad of sexual fantasy kinks).
doesn't fucking matter, he still said it and he wasn't drunk off his mind or anything. plus, he's not a damn child that doesn't know what he's getting himself into when he makes a promise. he's had enough life experience (heck, he was even married!) to know the weight behind certain words. jaeha is just a weak-minded fool that can't bear the idea of vulnerability, so much that he's willing to hurt others to avoid it. (that is, if he does end up sleeping with his sex friend.) some fictional characters are just shit people that are only concerned with themselves. sure, he might care about eunho, but he's clearly more driven by impulsivity and -- as the kyouran mentioned -- cowardice.
eunho, of course, is being just as foolish as his jackass of a lover to keep following him around like a desperate puppy. (like, have some dignity...) they're both at fault. but, jaeha being older and wiser, should know better than to do something as scumy as to lead someone on, especially someone so honest and faithful to him
gahhhh im so pissedddd ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ
GIRL YOU'RE SO DAMN RIGHT. I was really shocked reading comments saying that Jeaha is not cheating on Eunho because they're not in a relationship, yes, they're not officialy dating, but so what? Jaeha is aware of the feelings of Eunho toward him and he accepted having sex with him, he even said that he wouldn't have sex with anyone if it's no him. Jaeha could have rejected Eunho before getting involved in whatever kind of relationship they have now, but he didn't and for that he needs to take some kind of responsability.
If Jeaha comes to have sex with Hanju that would be cheating because as you explained he fully knows that that will hurt Eunho a lot, Jaeha knows that he's getting his hopes up and now that he got involved with Eunho he needs to decide what to do whether it's to accept him or reject him, that would be the most appropriate thing to do.
You're comment made my day, than you
I do... But well, at Eunho's eyes it may be cheating
Are you serious? Do you need a special moment to make a promise? And he forced him to promise, how exactly? Put a gun in his head? Get real
(≧∀≦) Hahahahaha I like you
O.o haahaha!!!! I can't help being fascinated by Hayato's paradoxical nature of "innocent" and "yandere" or psychotic naivete. I mean, he truly lacks self-awareness regarding the wrongness of his actions, even though he's more than clear about his feelings for his brother; and his non-nonchalant crazy behavior had me rolling on the floor! I just love these Yandere semes. I hope this doesn't become a tragedy. We'll see. (≧∀≦)
There's a reason why even though most of us agree that the story is good and sweet, we still feel dissatisfied, and that is because the "conflict" was not resolved satisfactorily, if at all. The issue for a lot of us is the question of "equality" in a romantic relationship. The mangaka tried to sell it at the end as if Maki "realized" he liked being the bottom and that he only felt pressured by others to lose his penile virginity; but what was actually conveyed to most of us is that, naturally, as any normal teenager would, Maki really wanted the equal opportunity to make love (penetrate) Miyashita; it is completely normal for a teenager to want to experience that type of sex, and instead of granting his loved one's request, Miyashita acted (very non-apologetically) selfishly. Miyashita didn't even seriously consider his loved one's wishes, he shut down the possibility from the start; and at the end, Maki did not "recognize" that he really liked being the bottom, but more like he had to **Resign** himself and submitted to Miyashita's will (selfishness), and that type of **unwilling** subordination in a relationship is actually anti-romantic, because, again, it shows the relationship is inequitable and Miyashita is not willing to sacrifice for his loved one, but Maki is.
I think that it would have been romantically satisfying if Miyashita would have given serious consideration to his loved one's wishes, and should have sincerely tried, even if at the end he wouldn't have been able to go through with it; if he would have conveyed sincerity, I'm sure that Maki would have been touched by it, and so would have the readers. Ultimately, the right thing to do would have been for Miyashita to give up his anal virginity to Maki, and simultaneously, allow Maki to lose his penile virginity, even if it had been only once, or even if they only do it once in a blue moon; but to shut down his partner's wishes without sincerely taking them into consideration is a direct stab at the heart of romance; and this is why we are left with a feeling of dissatisfaction. What started as very romantic, fizzled at the end.
this chapter had my eyes welling up. i felt so sorry for maki. you're right...the issue isn't solved, and most couples would actually talk this out.
I completely agree with you. I felt dissatisfied when I finished that chapter, because what I thought would have been romantic and a growing relationship stopped right there when they could not be equal.
I understand Maki might have been the type of person who liked bottom only, and I had nothing wrong with him wanting to stay in that position. But I didn't feel like Maki actually preferred the bottom ("female") position but more it was forced onto him like you said. As they say, you can't dis it until you try it, and Maki has not tried top ("male") position in sex so he has nothing to compare to, so I don't understand how he can only like the bottom position.
Oh well, the story was nice, but I would love to see them in a more equal standing then what was given.
Completely agree! very well stated!
Not to be rude or anything but I just wanna say that ink otakus would take the time to wrote this n read it BTW I agree with u
Haha!! beat him at his own game! I love it! ლ(´ڡ`ლ)
You know what they say, he who comes in the other last wins!
Wow, this is truly painful. Mangago should tag the status as "Incomplete" for all mangas that remain incomplete because they have been dropped, long hiatus or because the mangaka has passed away. There is no worst pain than to enthusiastically engage with a story tagged as "completed", only to find out that it's incomplete, and worst when the story is as good as this one. Fuck! ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ
Was this dropped by the translation group or long hiatus?
I have no idea, sweety :(
loooong hiatus
Aww. Thank you~
Huhuhu. Sad. Thank you anyway
you're welcome
I enjoyed all the stories, but I cannot get over my fascination with the first one " Toraware no Otoko by -Takanaga Hinako! Why why why why is it so short! the torture! But overall, loved the anthology!