❀ noxdii ❀'s Things

I got myself into a SHITTY situation. It was my fault but who cares?

My mom asked if I was interested in my high schools color guard, I didn’t really know what it was at the time so I asked her about it. She showed me a looooot of YouTube vids showing everyone waving the flags to music and marching around and stuff. Even though I said it looked fun, I didn’t want to do it at all. I told her that I’m not interested in doing any extracurriculars or anything, but they said you have to do SOMETHING, so I just went ahead with color guard. I had a little fun, but I hate it still. Due to the times we practice and the days we practice (super early to late afternoon or from late afternoon to super late at night), I barely get any sleep, and now I have to keep practicing and even though you can tell the coach that you want to quit, my mom won’t let me. So here I am, practicing at home for hours at a time, barely seeing my friends anymore, meeting almost every day, and doing something I don’t want to do. Im never doing this again after the season ends. Doing something I didn’t want to do ruined my summer, all because I did what my mom wanted instead of what I wanted. So, fuck.

I can’t stop thinking about something that happened a few years back and it pisses me off every song time I think about it. So I’m just gonna tell y’all what happened just bc I want to

(*This contains self harm*)

2-3 years ago, I found out one of my friends was cutting herself during gym class (there were a looooot of cuts along her arms and shoulders) and I told my mom about it on our way home. She literally laughed and said that what she was doing was stupid and she needs to get over herself. My friend’s parents aren’t the nicest to her and my other friends that went over to her house said the same thing. Tf?

Cat costumes or maid costumes?

I’m bored so tell me about something that changed your perspective on something

Okay so yk how sometimes dicks are referred to as glow sticks and lightsabers ? I was dreaming that I was sitting on my bed next to my bsf and she was like “why are they censoring the dicks?” And I was like “lol no one wants to see meat popsicles”

Then I woke up
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