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Touyu July 9, 2020 6:12 pm

so guys help me out.. it has been some time... are the two boys from the latest chapters the boys from the beginning? I dont remember shit.. maybe someine could give me a brief summary of the plot up to now? wasnt the main guy orange haired? and the other hee bum, or were they the same.. sorry i am so lost :D

    ℛion July 9, 2020 8:27 pm

    The chapters now are a memory from the past. He probably dyed his hair after this

    Touyu July 10, 2020 7:10 am

    ohhhhhhh I am so dumb, thank you!

Touyu April 3, 2020 4:26 pm

Holy fuck it said Comedy but suddenly shit is happening all over the place xD didnt think it would turn out that serious

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Yamanekio March 4, 2020 7:30 am

hey! could someone tell me which manga that is from?
https://www.instagram.com/p/B9S1CqtJ5zi/

Yamanekio June 7, 2019 7:19 pm

So I work as a caretaker for children in a kindergarten and obviously that is a job that requieres a lot of interaction with other people. But in my free time I am much more of a introverted person. I reallllly treasure the time I have outside of work and love to spend it alone. I am mostly content with it and even if my friends are sometimes a bit bothered by it, most of them accept it. It doesnt really makes me have problems with my work and I always just assumed, well maybe because I have a job were I have to talk a lot with people, I like to compensate that with spending my free time on my own. But then I really dont like crowds and can get a bit anxious when I have to do shopping, take trains and so on. ( When I am at work its kinda different because its „work“ and a safe enviroment? Idk its difficult for me to explain, sorry ) So for some time now people always think I am lying if I tell them that i am not really much of a sociable person outside of work adn that I wouldnt do that job if I would be a introverted person. Want I want to ask now is, is it really that uncommon to work in such a job with a personality like that? Or iam I not really introverted but have something anxiety issues? I hope I could bring across what I am struggling with, since my english isnt always the best :D <3

    Anonymous June 7, 2019 7:27 pm

    I had the chance of working as a caretaker. I'm also an introvert. I like spending my free time at home/to my self and unless it's for shopping/grocery, I'm mostly at home. Your case is common I would say. I know a teacher who said she is an introvert but many were surprised because she was easy-going, free and just social, so.. yeah. You could say, in society (whether it be related to work or just interacting with people) we put personas/masks to socialise with people.

    Mar June 7, 2019 9:28 pm

    No not all. It just that it is work and youre kinda obligated to work (with kids in this case.) I myself work in retail and i love my collegues etc. but I when i can i just want to stay at home and be alone to do stuff for myself. So it very common no worries!! (⌒▽⌒)

    ivy June 7, 2019 10:05 pm

    same here- similar work and also love to be alone- though...
    take care that it doesnt turn into depression or something. to talk with friends is diffrent than talking with people from work (co-workers and ... clients? (lol))
    I mentioned depression bec. when you not only want to be alone...
    you said you also suffer from 'anxiety' that could be a hint.
    Wenn du reden möchtest, kannst du mich gerne anschreiben :*

    Yamanekio June 8, 2019 12:25 pm

    thank you all for you replies <3 I feel less weird now that I read it is not that uncommon to be like this c: and @ivy yeah i know what you mean, i am having a hard time figuring out if i really just enjoy being alone or if its just "easier" to shut myself out from others :D ( dunno how else to say it ;D ) and thank you for your kind offer <3

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♬ Music is my refuge ♬


      > 穏やかに暮らしてほしい <

☆ Sorry darling, this is harder than we 
both thought but it’s not so terrible, the 
path that we walk ☆

.• How can something so enticing have 
such awful side effects? •.

『 Even though I'm better off by myself, 
loneliness hits me from time to time 』

♡ Every inch of me is charred, god, what happened to my heart? I'm about to fall 
apart and you're never coming back and 
I'm not okay with that and I should've 
never let myself get attached ♡

❀ Your eyes, they shine so bright, I want to save that light, I can't escape this nowunless you show me how ❀

◆ I'll be fine, but my heart won't agree, it keeps accelerating, every time you try
 looking back at me ◆

☯ That happy dream of being embraced by you, however, I always wake up alone.If this is a dream just like this, it's fine 
even if I don't wake up ☯

[  I don't even want to be looked at or 
touched by the person I love ]

◈ My thoughts become scattered at the 
last moment and I don't even convey a 
third of what I want ◈

≋ Just open up your eyes, why don’t you grow up and see? But what the hell is 
“growing up” and tell me when will I be? Can a single person out there just explain it to me? ≋

❁ Often I'm told I need to clean up my 
act, although maturity is something I lack and so when some simple little problems arise I overthink them over and over 
again ❁

⋆ You’re doing enough, you’re doing just 
fine, I know you and you’re trying your 
best right now, that’s all you need just 
keep your pace, don’t be nervous, trust 
yourself ⋆

⧫ I get scared sometimes when I see all 
the connections happening around me, 
that fate will evade me, that time will 
betray me, that future I just don't want tosee ⧫

⚛ Weekends are always spent in the 
dephts of the sea, it's the time for me to 
tune my heart, weekends are always 
spent in the dephts of my music for 
nobody else but myself ⚛

❖ Lay me right down, let me sleep, I'm 
restless, cover my eyes, when I'm up ❖

☯ I didn't feel cherished by anyone, that'swhy I resented everyone around me. 
I felt unworthy and so withdraw from 
them ☯

.• There are many things that will not be conveyed unless you voice them •.

☆ But I still don’t know the reason we 
met, or even why we parted ways ☆

♡ It's tough to think ill of someone when 
they remind us of pleasant memories ♡

≋ Finally I have become the twisted child I always pretended to be ≋

◆ Help me, I broke apart my insides, helpme, I've got no soul to sell, help me, the only thing that works for me, help me 
get away from myself ◆

⋆ The one thing I wish for the most, is 
also the one thing, I am absolutly not 
able to do ⋆

❀ I fell in love with the idea of loving 
 someone ❀

『 I love things that are broken, I love 
things that have been thrown away, if 
they have no other playce in the world, 
they will stay by my side 』

·.·´ So that you could call my name when
you're troubled, so that you could 
remember that you're not alone no matterhow isolated you feel, because I had no 
one whose name I could call `·.·

ıllıllı- And it's like every day is a fight for my life to get some self control -ıllıllı

★ I'm safe here in my world, I'm 
untouched, warm and curled, their voices never hurt me. No one can come, I'm set free ★

~ Don't look for me, don't look for me, I'd rather stay out of everyone's sight, if I 
can. I'm still not used to living in this 
world ~

.• I am tired and a little miserable. I want to go home and sleep •.

◈ I'm not good with people and I don't 
want to interact with them and yet, I'm 
very concerned about what others think 
of me ◈

⋆ The trembling fear is more than I can 
take, when I'm up against the echo in themirror ⋆

♡ Everything that you left behind became my life ♡

◆ Anyone would want to run away if they are pressured from all sides. You end up relying on anyone who shows even a littlebit of kindness. You end up collapsing.. tolean on the person nearest to you. ◆

·.·´How are you going to survive on your 
own if you crave so much affection? `·.·

❀ Do I like the attention or do I like the 
person? ❀

~ We have wounds too deep to lead 
typical daily lives ~

♡ All I wanted, was to be wanted ♡
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