i love it when the beach and the gays and the gays with the beach and gays
i cannot count with hand with how much these gay men be going to the beach like ,, they own the sand and sea atp
psa: uuh im not good w names. srry if i got them wrong
dawg ofc he's going to be ridden with guilt. when
searching for redemption, you do selfish shit sometimes that you'd think is best for the situation. you'd always feel guilt for what you've done, punish yourself for doing stupid shit while also making a stupid shit decision.
in this scenario, he knows he himself was a big factor as to why euihyun might think of killing himself. euihyun is a good person, a natural at taking care of life (of himself, taejoo, and others around him), so being the cause and effect of his miscarriage equalled to him thinking that he ultimately brings endless sufferings to euihyun. while he showers him with affection, he himself (taejoo) might think that he's only doing so because he /needs/ to repay for his misdeeds and wrongdoings (as he should) but he **only might** consider the fact that he's doing it out of /guilt/ rather than /love/.
so in the last attempt, or what i like to think is his final way of showing whatever affection he truly has for euihyun, he declares he wants to end it all. end euihyun's suffering, end taejoo's torment towards the person he had come to love, end everything between them so that euihyun could live without taejoo constantly bringing him misfortune.
but, we all know, that he wasn't the cause of everything. in fact, he had made shit decisions that still saved euihyun; that still showed that he cared, adored, and loved euihyun. it wasn’t his fault that euihyun fell into debt and it wasn't his fault he got assaulted by others who weren't him (except for that one time he dragged him into a brothel even though euihyun agreed to work there, he was still reluctant, hesitant, anxious, and clearly wasn't fully consenting to being touched by a stranger).
taejoo isn't a good person, but he isn't the worst either. he's shitty, but he isn't as bad compared to other shitty people and i know taejoo himself knows that. but at this point, his judgment scale leans towards him being "shitty" moreso than "not being the worst". taejoo is scared, he's extremely hurt for euihyun, he is angry towards himself, he's overwhelmed by the fact that he has finally got euihyun in his arms again, finally forgave him, and caused another "misfortune" for the person he loves. taejoo loves euihyun, and he is willing to do everything to let him stop hurting; to live and stop thinking about death.
im sad for the both of them. but i hope they actually separate from each other, sort their shit out without each other, become independent from each other, before meeting each other and deciding to try again or not in a different, healthier, circumstance.
i dont really get him ,, ik he's probably(?) a sociopath based at how he changes moods so quickly outta nowhere, but i don't get why he somehow went from ignoring(?) and not giving a fuck about peter (not to mention breaking his pinkie and assaulting him multiple times) to comforting him while he gets nightmares? i get "the possessiveness" bc peter is far different from anyone he's surrounded himself in his life (except for the extra weirdos) and he wants this completely pure person to keep liking him (likely to feed his ego? or fascination) but the sudden affection? where did allat come from?? ig ill have to reread ts to further understand ..
i get peter's vulnerable character and wooyeon's sociopathic behavior but i can never understand wooyeon's true feelings for peter. maybe i don't understand because i'm bad at cues and understanding someone, or maybe it's because wooyeon himself does not know what he truly feels towards peter, which is why he switches from being affectionate to destructive towards the poor man ..
idk igaf too much gang
"my guildmate next door" in another universe if the ml there turned into a twink
i shoulda just stayed clear from this story and read it when it completes WDYM THATS THE RECENT CHAPTER????@?@@?@#,#&÷^&#&##&#&
live laugh love intense gay sex with deep emotional plot with dark undertones
carion really got that toji fushiguro treatment like he appeared in the late chaps as an antagonist and died the same way lmaooo deserved i say
honestly i don't give a flying fuck about what happens to jiwook or jonghoon, i empathize with what they've been through but no one can ever make me like their character. taemin is so right and i was so glad he spoke out what i thought when jiwook laid out his backstory—he caused someone great suffering over something that could be easily resolved.
now i might souns like an asshole in that one, but it's true. everyone compares themselves to everyone, jiwook more so extremely because he was surrounded by people who did, but i swear to god he could've just had that conversation with his brother, maybe even went to therapy, lived a life without giving any fucks about being better than his brother or not because he is his own self, because his inferiority of being in his brother's shadow is NOT a reason to get your brother to be assaulted, bullied, and KILLED. not when your brother had absolutely done nothing directly to you.
i feel bad for him, i really do, but it's such a shitty reason to make someone off themselves when they had such a bright future ahead of them. it's selfish, immature, and psychotic. everyone goes through something, he isn’t the only one suffering. if he hadn't spent all the time looking himself and trying to look good he could've probably BE good himself if he just wasn't selfish enough to think about ONLY himself.
i don't have strong feelings for jonghoon, but i do have a big hatred for what he did to the old siwoon. i don't care how rough your upbringing was, none of that is a reason for you to commit assault.
fuck them both, i'm their beigggest opps. siwoon could have led such a nice life but he had that taken away from him because he was simply being himself. i do and i hope in this fictional little world, jiwook's life is fucked up ten fold than he did to siwoon's. that boy deserved better peers, better parents, and a better life. all because of that stupid inferiority, a life was taken.
ah, fuck them both they can stick their dicks up their asses and rub balls together but i hope siwoon haunts jiwook until he dies
i will always defend joonghyun and explain why he acts the way he acts but ts will never make me like that silver haired skank of a male lead
(yapping alert)
spoiler? ig but more of an observation for mc:
- i whole heartedly believe that mc wouldn't have ended up with childhood friend (lets label him as sml <second male lead>) because he just doesn't match his freak yk and by freak i do not mean literal rape just rough sex w PROPER d/s undertones that has PROPER COMMUNICATION, PROPER BOUNDARIES, AND IMMEDIATE DISCLOSURE OF A SAFEWORD IF MC REALLY WISHES TO STOP.
- i also believe that in that one ch. where mc inevitably chose to have a fuck sesh with ml over a good movie sesh w sml is because he unconsciously craves the foreign pleasure this asshole gave him (and believes that he won't be able to recreate with his own self) and one of the main factors of that is the sheltered life i presumed he lived because of that incident and with sml acting like his barrier from incels (love him) he wishes to experience that kind of experience again (seeing as he literally couldn't cum because he didn't think of using the backdoor) and because it is in humam nature to be greedy he chose to chase that pleasure over his safety and sml
- another factor to that and basically why mc makes dumb decisions because HE IS NAIVE !! BRO DOESN'T THINK SHIT THROUGH CLEARLY GOD HELP HIM. like he was naive enough to go alone in a get-together as an omega, without his alpha barrier sheild, and GETTING DRUNK LIKE OH MY GODD THIS POOR MAN and he was obviously going to get preyed on by asshole pieces of poop like that asswipe ml BUT HE DOESN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD DO THAT TO HIM BC HE'S THAT NAIVE??? I THINK bless his soul someone get him a proper partner his cute ass doesn't deserve this harsh reality of his comic world
- lastly, he's trying his best. my boy is clueless in some (maybe in most) departments but he knows what he's doing........................ i think
bro is lich using him like i would to a fleshlight if a fleshlight was like myeonggil-sized idk he is manhandling him in the most literal way possible
the teddy tat looks so out of place on him too lmfao i giggled when i saw the panel
I FOUND YOU THE DEUS EX MACHINA OF MY WOEFUL LIFE I AM SHAKINH
THIS IS WHAT I LIKE TO SEEEEEE asshole ml literally kills himself just for redemption OH MY GOD THANK FUCK I FOUND YOU