I remember it was a last chapter, other chapters were unrelated to this oneshot. Yaoi; both uke and seme were doctors, but seme was in a posh hospital working as a surgeon, and uke was working at his dad's small clinics for elderly people. They seemed to hate each other, seme bullied uke when they were in elementary school. Uke's dad fell ill and it was seme who operated his father. Sex was rather rape-y. And there was a good luck charm with a torn letter in it.
It's re-read number ...th and only now I understood the side-stories. I was complaining how the story about Sayan having torture rooms and an inner voice was never fully addressed when IT WAS: loving Ilic made the insanity go away, and Sayan disposed of all the torture rooms because they would have frightened Ilic - and the way I understood it, the crazy inner voice wanted Sayan to torture Ilic had he betrayed him, but Sayan was so in love that hurting Ilic was not an option and in the end he even started courting him. It seems in his youth he thought he is a sadist and then meeting Ilic he realized he never wanted to hurt him (only tease). (=・ω・=)
Same. I just remembered this story and reread it. I also just understood the side stories