Why did Yashiro remember his past while Doumeki climaxed?
I think maybe because this is the first time he did it with someone who he (and the other person) had feelings. "This" was something he had never experienced before, just like when he got raped as a child was something new. Afterwards, using pain was his "gateaway" but Doumeki used love and gentleness, feelings that rattled him and brought back memories... He couldnt lose himself to the "pain" I guess, so he remembered that night... I hope I make sense
i agree. he was always playing down his experience in his childhood (remember how he talked about it when the compared his experience to the one of dome's sister? - like how he loved sex after that whole thing...) kind of a coping mechanism to make himself believe that he likes the rape and it s no big deal. the experience with doumeki is making him realize something and he might have not yet come to terms with his childhood...
well, i am no psychologist, but anyways, my take on this
It just came to him...
I'm no psychologist either, but I agree. I just wrote about this up top, but I think there's a little symbolic moment in that scene where Yashiro remembers seeing the light coming through the gap in the panels during his rape and then in the present, he turns his head and sees light coming through the gap of the curtains. I think that symbolizes the dawn breaking for him, and then it's reinforced by the slight return of feeling in his hand. He has to feel the bad things he's been covering over in order to get past them. It's genius writing, I think.
@ eworth : I agree (lol) with everything you said. I also believe it is genius writing because she took on a trope that has been used in yaoi and has become so ridiculous I am immune to it. But sensei brought back all the reality of such an experience and we, along with Yashiro , are seeing that dawn you said.
@mia: yep exactly
what really worries me is the conclusion that he is drawing out of this... i just want a happy ending for him (with as little drama in the coming chapters as possible...!) please don't run away from doumeki now >.<
and yeah, yoneda you really has a knack for getting the message across without using words. love her so much <3
I didn't get the ending...frankly Adam enjoyed seeing Yuri get fucked by those old assholes and suddenly he did a 180 degree flip and is all territorial about yuri?? And the next thing he says is he loves yuri? It was too rushed and lacked justification.
I think he was holding back all along. He loves Yuri way to much, so he holds back all of his feelings. He does not want to steep over the line. As if he knows that if they sleep together, he wants Yuri for himself. He knew he would be territorial and nobody is to touch him. As the VIP said "Are you afraid? That once you embrace him, he will push you towards insanity".
But yeah, I agree the ending was kind of crappy. It was to damn sexy and intense the first chapters, but chapter 3 and 4 is a bit rushed. I miss the longwaited-craving sex, and not some drug to start them off. Wished it to be a more BAM! kinda ending. Yeah, it was kind of sweet, but not like it should be.
Adam wasn't seeing Yuriy. He was seeing Yuriya (the woman who exploited and controlled him, and who Adam murdered). When Yuriy says he'll take his mother's place, Adam continued his vengeful control, his hatred for Yuriya, on the son. (The names are alike for a reason). And he also has growing desire for Yuriy, that's twisted by his hate for Yuriya.
It isn't until Adam sees YURIY, not Yuriya, YURIY, because the drug has lowered his inhibitions and increased his libido, that he starts to break free of the curse of Yuriya, and then Yuriy can break free of the curse, too (both of them have been under a spell of sorts).
When Adam regains himself, and he sees Yuriy as Yuriy, they can express real love (healthy love), not the twisted thing. When the shoes stop having hold of them, they are free to be who they are with each other. The mother is fully dead and BURIED now (hence we see the grave of the mother, she's finally REALLY dead, not a hovering, damning presence, not a ghost alive in Yuriy, DEAD).
Adam and Yuriy at the end are themselves, without the ghost of mom, the weight of Abalkin, the curse of the shoes.
Where is the special chapter?!
I saw it on facebook (not translated) and dayuuuuummmm
Satsuki is such a wimp! Mamura deserves chun-chun. He has always been there for her. Satsuki was half-hearted in his efforts to be together with her. And the timing was never good. Although I wanted some more mamura-suzume dating time.
So has this manga been taken up again for scanlation??
Looks like it~ YAYS! แ(ยดฺก`แ)
I would really like to see a chapter on hiro n masaki's college days!
it would have been nice if the story takes a longer detour to the past or puts it on its own story. that would be cute
Yea...i wanna see the romance between those two