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This manga actually saddens me a lot, because their relationship is so realistic. Shun's obvious depression and him being stressed out constantly because of work, and Mio who can't help him and is lonely and forced to spend less time with Shun because of his stress and work problems.
When you compare this to the beginning of their relationship it's so obvious how the time they spend together has decreased and become less enjoyable, their life has turned into a toxic routine, they are not intimate with each other and when they are it seems like they are forcing themselves, they have been living together for 5 years and in those 5 years they have steadily slid into this mundane life, Shun's problems are getting worse and Mio spends his days doing what he does every single day, stuck in an unhealthy routine, because he is unable to connect with his boyfriend, and they've lost the connection they used to have. They will likely go on living the same life as they have been for the past 5 years slowly drifting apart like most couples in reality do.
This is no hate at the manga or the author, might even take it as a compliment for depicting the reality of a relationship so well.
This is exactly what I feel put unto words.
My theory is that Mo already knows he is attracted to men and that he's known for a while, but he can't admit it to himself and he hates himself for it. So when He Tian kissed him he reacted badly and told him that he was disgusting because he really wants to believe that, he doesn't want to accept that it's alright to be attracted to another guy. Also, i think that's why he is so resistant towards He Tian.
Righhtttt because when his friend asked him what kind of girl he liked he said "How should I know!!" while pissed. He needs to be more honest with himself