This is hard for me... Looking at chowon so broken and a mess. I think he just wanted be loved. When he first saw Dojun I think he felt like he was the one who could fill the emptiness that he felt however, Dojun did not really care about him which drove him mad. Imagine having your hopes crushed and how insecure and pathetic he must've felt. I know its not an excuse for him to do those things but he just looked starved for affection. After seeing Dojun showing affection to someone else when he didn't even experience it himself just felt so unfair and made him feel like nothing. He was alone from the start with no one by his side... I feel so sorry for him... He had to swallow up his feelings so he wouldn't get devoured by society and caused mental stress. I think he has anxiety and depression... Chowon Stay Strong!! * ╥﹏╥
El and Lapis look so cute together!! They look like a family. El is the mother, lapis is the father and Rai is the son (=・ω・=)