|kill that redhead hot cheeto do heyok.|
|Anime Manga Yaoi Yuri|
|Unstan yagami yato|
|Nonbinary (they/them)|
|Pansexual|
Haii~! My name is Arie, you can also call me Ani.
, i'm demiasexual and i'm somebody who's full of darkness and yaoi is my light.
i started reading yaoi July 2017.
I'm a college student.
[Rn I'm a freelancer Anime artist] you can ask for comission to me but I have a sheet to show you!
ー2019ー
I'm a 1st year college or grade 11 who still loves to draw and still sad :,D
─June 14, 2020─
Due to covid school was postponed ;-;) but I'am now getting turn on to yaoi and becoming more of a pervert ⊙︿⊙)... And i felt disgusting and i still love to draw and improving ^°^)/
-Jan. 15, 2021-
Grade-12~! I learned alot of stuff as I get old, the more experiences I get from different platforms, the more I understand what the world takes, I accepted that temporary happiness again but not the same as before, if there's a time they will go, i'll wave back with a smile to cherish each memories. I learned to accept everything and everyone but not something I could lie on since I don't believe on what's right and wrong anymore.
April 8,2022
Too much S scenes from yaoi makes me want to puke. Idk why maybe because I realize i'm much more of an asexual who fell inlove with both gender and gay but I guess I reached my limit to the peak that I feel butterflies on my stomach.
April 19,2022
I feel like vomiting. Everytime I read too much yaoi with s scenes or anything related to it. I kept having to urge puke.
June 12,2022
Finally accept that i'm both asexual and bisexual. I may hate sex but I do love being an Sadist. I also thought about my future thinking what i'll be five years from now. I stopped going to college of fine arts and architecture and focus on doing business and pursue Psychology. As a course. From then on this will help me build up my confidence and knowledge to conquer how to play the life itself well. I will not give on being an artist but for sure I will go back and continue it.
June 24,2022
I have a symptom called vertigo.
Aug 6,2022
I get state- like seizure from getting overly stressed out or triggering trauma and I came to hate age gap as soon as my nephew was born, I became an overprotected adult.
Oct 5,2022
I got to a new college school its about psych... I'm lost and empty but i have this confidence. A mixed feeling that I should be dead but a way to wanting to keep moving forward while being alive.
Oct. 18,2022
I notice i've been poisoning myself slowly but surely.
Oct 30,2022
My bird died, she was like my service pet, she wasn't trained, she was months old. I hate myself for not taking care of her much. I cried for weeks, my throat felt dry, I felt sick for few days. I don't want to remember her so I cleaned my room but never the spot she always land on. I was so happy for a change but it's gone after. I learned something, knowing the answers to questions is a huge mistake, I guess curiosity does kill a cat. Knowing all questions does make your life useless... But denying everything makes me lose myself, I'm scared of facing the truth but at the same time scared of losing myself too.
Jan.8,2022
I hope to die, I tried jumping off on a building but I was mesmerized by the sound of the cars, the gust of wind and the mesmerizing view. I calmed myself and look as if I already died, as if it removed my worries and it made me stay in peace. After that day I regretted alot not being able to jump. But I hope for sure soon I'll be able to cross that border too... I regret hurting the people I love in the past yet the more they stay with me hurts me even more, they still love me and I hate myself for that, why did I hurt such people, why did I hurt him the most. I know we have anxiety yet mine has anger issues, I used those words against him cause I know he'll get hurt from that. I know how much longer he suffers from that and I know there's time were he tries to forget it. But I know my friend and him have a talk to each other then I thought maybe this is better this way. He was like my other half, a best friend when we started talking to each other. I miss those days and yet if he still feels hurt when talking about it nor not understand I'll feel remorse.
Jan 15,2022
Whenever am trying my best to stay positive I started to puke, as if it's too disgusting and unrealistic that my body cannot contain nor swallow it well. I've been vomiting everytime cause my body is not used that such good thing exist.
Feb 13,2023
I almost killed my dad. His words doesn't align with his actions and I had enough. I look at him dead in the eye. I trained my fist and brain. I also punch and kick myself to feel pain. I had enough of life and I want to kill. Killing by means an instant death. I didn't touch him or anything I just said what he told the dogs. "I'll poison the dogs." Those words sit in and I told him "I'll poison you first." He was scared but I eventually taken aback when he said he gonna get my phone... (｡ŏ﹏ŏ)
Apr,18,2023
He died on stroke and a cardiac arrest, and my doggo too.
May,10,2023
My body is dying slowly but surely, I'll prolly die 60 below. Kinda exciting.
July 26,2023
My vertigo is getting worst idk if the meds are even working but I don't know what to eat everything makes me feel fatigue
Aug 16,2023
I forgot that trauma is the worst train that'll ever hit in your life.
Sept 12,2023
I've been drinking more vitamins and meds than I have to. I might get overdose in some way but it makes me feel at ease and usually removes my stress levels. My BP is also above 130 and it goes as low as normal like 90 which makes me drowsy. Am probably built different since I have asthma, quite hard to breathe but am still alive either way.
Nov 4,2023
Been normal eversince my vertigo is slowly going away and so does my asthma. I've been becoming healthy and suddenly had tons of opportunity in life, passing grades, already going to have a stable job waiting for my graduation and even have made clans or guilds for games to join tournaments.
Feb 2,2024
Am quite happy? I have a boyfriend
I love men.
Mother lover
Father lover
Brother lover
Sister lover
Grandfather lover
Grandmother lover
Aunt lover
Uncle lover
Cousin lover
When I die, Imma go to snowbunny
heaven.
Only white person I hate is Hitler and...
maybe Taylor Swift
The first and only Kaeya simp all other kaeya simps are fake ass bitches
reading yaois is my fetish
she/her real girl here
