so, hm... well I kind of disgust of myself??? cause I got turn on while reading or watching someone get molested. you know, like gang rape? sexual harrasment, threesome or foursome, orgies andmore stupid nasty things.
sometimes I would think that what if one day something you like to read happen to you? would you like it? and my answer to myself of course is NO. I dont want to get molested or rape or what so ever but I CANT HELP TO ENJOY READ/WATCH THEM AND GOT TURN ON/HORNY.
What should I do???
Hi! If you are weird then so do I!
I have been looking for answer myself and trying things out. Well from what I have found, the enjoyment that comes from watching/reading someone get molested/raped is just a form of sexual fantasy that you like not necessarily something that you can tolerate irl. They are called fantasy for reasons
I love BDSM, I enjoyed the genre and knowing that I have high pain threshold, I tried them. Unfortunately, my body cant handle them well (hard to find dom who are an expert in aftercare, my skin not reacting well with leathers etc) and the humiliations play (which seems turned me on when I am reading, makes me disgusted irl)
What important is that YOU MUST NEVER associate what happened in fictional world is alright in real world. You must know the boundaries of what is fiction and what is real life. Some people do have kinks/fantasy of getting raped but they only wanted to do them with their loved one.
To people who have traumatized experience getting raped, I am so sorry for your trauma. I am so sorry that some people enjoyed the fictional world of it. I know this is weird and same as OP, I am also confused about all this weird inclination. IRL, I never see rape as something that is OKAY, so dont take my reply as something equivalent as saying rape is okay cause I have been accused of them in the past.
Our bodies are made to respond to visual stimuli, please don't rush to label yourself as weird or other things based on a biological response. Your opinions and thoughts that you make consciously are what matters. As long as you *think* sexual abuse is wrong and I shouldn't happen, and you condemn it, then that's your stance on the topic and in my opinion that's what matters.
No need to be too harsh on yourself for something you are not actively participating in or helping perpetuate.
HAVE YOU EVER READ YAOI IN PUBLIC??? IF YES HOW'D YOU YOU GUYS DO THAT??? I TRY IT ONCE I CANT STOP FEELS LIKE THERES A LOT OF EYES WATCHING MY SCREEN PHONE AKSKKSKD
I've totally done it, even read it during school. My suggestion is decreasing your brightness all the way down, which should mean that people can't see your phone. And generally, unless you have nosy friends or people where you're at, nobody is gonna look at what you're up to on your phone. Oh, and you can get a tempered glass privacy screen protector on your phone, which would ensure people cannot see your phone ;)
I read it secretly in school lol
is there any sad storyline but happy ending bl manhwa? but not to sad just a slight angst that can me me cry after reading it. i just finished taming the tiger and that shit is so good i finally crying because of bl manhwa after a long timeeeeeee
bongchon bride
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/smile_1/
Leaving a comment just so I can use the recommendations
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/boy_meets_maria/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/life_senjou_no_bokura/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/smells_like_green_spirit/
I just finished one https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ghost_child/
Highly recommended!