See, I understand ppl being mad at T, because he is running away when E needs him, but I think it's reasonable in his own thought process. Now, keep in mind that when you are mentally unwell, you zero-in on your toxic/negative thoughts more over anything else. You can see it with T tunning out from the conversation with the doctor and how at the end he "takes on" the depressed appearance of E from the past. While E is healing and learning to move on despite the hurt caused to him, T is only now truly taking in the consequences of his actions and he's struggling to move past his actions to see that E actually wants to be with him.
He was already ready to free E from himself after rescuing him, so his mentality is already leaning toward E being free from himself. However, E decided to forgive him and while T has done terrible things, most of them can be overcome with time, but a baby? That's a more constant reminder and an even bigger consequence of his actions, and T knows E cares about his family, so he can't even imagine how hurt E would be. Will E have to endure more pain to forgive T again? T isn't logically thinking right now, he's only focused on wanting to stop hurting E, but with the miscarriage news his negative thinking is being re enforced. E will only stop hurting when T stops holding onto E.
Another point is that, T might believe that E doesn't actually want to be with him. Again, a negatively re-enforced though. T may think that E might have only been wanting to be with T because of the pregnancy, which could work in the same fashion as the debt, as another form of controlling and holding onto E by force. E may realize one day that he doesn't love T but may find himself trapped in the relationship again. T just wants E to be free and happy but T has only hurt him and chained him and the miscarriage news severs any little rationale left in T to forgive himself and move on.
Unfortunately, I believe that T may be going through the same thing as E initially did. T may feel stuck, unable to live without E but unable to forgive himself enough to return to E. I think he may consider suicide as a method to deal with this crossroad. He may run away, hide, or just avoid E enough to earn the money to support E and his brother, deciding to sink himself into the ocean. He may just run away now and try to commit suicide. Regardless, it definitely feels ominous for T to suddenly have the same design as E from when E was suicidal.
Dude I am so excited to see the redemption arc after the regret arc. Of course, Leo isn't the only one to blame but he pisses me off nonetheless (partially because he reminds me of the green haired bitch in another manga who literally broke up and avoided his loving and devoted boyfriend because they weren't in the honeymoon stage anymore (╬￣皿￣)凸 ). I get that eventually the honeymoon stage ends, but you still have to work on your relationship everyday afterwards. If your boyfriend feels that he won't be listened to, that's a problem too, because Leo has jumped conclusions and assumptions before truly giving JJ the space to talk. JJ wanted to wait until Leo was sober to talk on the night they broke up, Leo began to make dramatics, in the night before the flashback, Leo asserted he would listen to JJ but began to hit him with his assumptions "where you paid off? were gonna leve me regardless?" Leo even brushed off the idea that JJ could just be friends or giving tips to the other racer, and just assumed that JJ is sleeping with the racer - not considering how devoted JJ was. He didnt even think about what JJ meant by they need space, which sounds clear if you consider that JJ was trying to save their relationship by allowing their lives to be less intertwined so they could be a couple, not just something closer to fuck buddies.
Honestly, JJ could have communicated better but where is the line? Should JJ be the only one aware of their issues? Should he be the only one starting the conversation? It seems that all JJ wanted was for Leo to text or call him to talk things out, but instead Leo let his ego win and still expected JJ to take the first step. It gets exhausting to see one person doing their best, even at their own inconvenience, and their partner overlooking everything because they finally showed how upset they are.
Rant over, I want my redemption arc badly lol
Which green haired b!tch
My first point was not totally correct, the green haired guy thought his loving, devoted, and voice acting boyfriend was cheating bc he overheard his boyfriend practicing, but refused to communicate and just ran away making wild assumptions. Point still stands for this story, but man do I hate that green haired motherfucker.
There were a few odd lines throughout, so my guess the r- line was maybe "attack you" not anything else. But yeahhhhhhhhhh, cute story overall
After re reading I realized the older brother is such a massive hypocrite. It turns out, the older brother's father had multiple human partners. And it kind of is weird that he applies two different standards to his parents, where one can have multiple partners and the other can't. Not to mention that it further shows that the older brother is following the fucked up logic of the village, where they essentially can own their partners and are superior to humans. He doesn't view the MC as his own person but rather as a possession to own, which Coro also did at the beginning until he started being more considerate of the MC. Not that Coro is 100% better BUT the older brother is nothing but a jerk who wants to get rid of his half brother and nephew to own and impregnate his childhood crush - who btw, may not even be the correct brother by some theories floating around!!!!!
Aside from the fact that the older brother may have confused Yurito and his older brother, I think he may also not know everything about his mother's story. I get a feeling that his mother may have originally been with Coro's father, but either through magic manipulation or some sort of threat, their mother got with the older brother's father. After they had the older brother, his father may have realized that his mistress would not actually love him or maybe their deal was over, allowing their mother to go back to his actual lover. It's speculation but I just think that because the village admired the older brother's father, they either didn't realize the truth (just like how they are now not suspecting anything being wrong) or they are trying to "protect" the older brother from the truth due to their biases. My thesis is just that the village sucks and is biased and I would hate living around them. Just theorizing and stuff lolol
Man I sure hope we have an uke chasing seme type of arc, that sounds like a dream. But I do have to say that MC (uke) sounds so exhausting, he does what he wants without caring about his boyfriend's feelings about it. First chapter, MC has his fun and leaves ML high and dry, in the following chapters, MC is out partying and what not, EXPECTING that his bf is just gonna show up to deal with his shit. I get why everyone feels bad for ML and not MC, because they can see that MC has gotten comfortable with their relationship the way it is and the ML appears to just be putting up with his bf's shit, rather than enjoying the time they have together.
Not to say ML is all clear, because he SHOULD have communicated with his bf earlier. There is no excuse to not communicate that he feels that their relationship is not secure and that he feels they need to work on it. However, him being this loner introvert type, I do get why he wouldn't feel 100% confident in discussing it because he feels that his bf would not actually listen. He feels that he's more of a tool than an actual partner to his bf. And I can see it based on the fact that his bf would ask multiple questions without actually waiting for an answer and would jump to conclusions rather than sitting down and allowing his bf to just speak.
As another commenter pointed out, they both need time apart to grow before they can truly work out anything. But I still want an MC chases ML arc hehe.
Beggers can't be choosers. You are doing one thing illegally already by reading on here, so you don't get to be all picky about translation quality. You aren't paying for a service at all, you take what you get. If something better comes along, sure take that, but you can't demand quality translations when you aren't paying. If you don't like the translations you get, don't read 'em. Wait for something better, but don't act like you deserve something good when you aren't paying the author for their work at all.
It's frustrating, because I think most ppl complaining are acting like children or are children. Reality check! Shitty translations on illegal websites have been a thing since forever! If you've been on here for a long time, you know this, and you're gonna have to deal with it. Be grateful you at least get something, some manga stop updating completely or only get raw scans. I swear, some people need to stop being shamelessly entitled when they don't even buy the official chapters.
Completely agree.....some people think they are entitled to everything even if they don't do anything.....
The crash itself was a wake up call for Leo, but Leo is still not ready to admit it. The crash wasn't deadly but it came about because Leo refuses to grow up. He's not taking responsibility for his own well being, physically or psychologically, because he has been so reliant on JJ. Now JJ is not in the clear because he did not communicate all his feelings, leading to Leo continuing like nothing was wrong, but JJ is right when he called out Leo on not being 19 anymore but still acting the same. Leo is a grown ass adult, he should be able to rely on himself, especially as a professional in his field. He let himself go, continued clubbing, let his ego win over reasoning, leading to his crash. He was lucky nothing serious happened but he put blame on having lost JJ (his fortuna) rather than his own lack of self-care and self-control. He's gonna receive another wake up call from JJ however.
I believe in his conversation with JJ, Leo will express regret and try to artificially repair their relationship. He may even call JJ his fortuna and outright state why he wants to get back together, which WILL anger JJ. So far JJ has wanted distance from Leo, not because he loves him less or bc he got a better offer somewhere else, but because he wants Leo and him to have a better relationship by being able to grow as individuals in a relationship. So far it seems Leo gets more out of the relationship than JJ, we see it in the first chapter where Leo has sex with JJ but only receives his own gratification and leaves JJ on his own (High and dry). JJ also strangely seems to not be completely bothered by the idea of Leo sleeping with others, and while I assume it may have come from a misunderstanding it seems that JJ doesn't believe that Leo really loves him. JJ may believe that their relationship is more transactional than it truly is, and that's why he questions if Leo has ever seen him as his boyfriend. Thus, Leo coming to talk to JJ about JJ being his fortuna (rather than someone he loves) may cement the idea that Leo does not see their relationship like JJ does. Ultimately, JJ might leave and Leo will have to make a decision - his ego or his relationship.
Tbh Leo is selfish. But his ego isn't that massive.
He never puts others down nor talks bad about others. He doesn't even lash out when someone points out his flaws or calls him out for shit.
Being selfish is different than having an ego.
If Leo must make a decision it will most likely come down to his feelings for JJ...and his feelings for racing itself. Which we have seen are tied together as one.
So in the end...if this conversation ends badly...which it most likely will.
Leo will most likely become truly heartbroken and drop racing entirely. (Probably will go back to modeling...or if current events continue. Become depressed)
JJ will feel heartbroken as well. But in his stoic attitude will just leave Leo and move on in his life while later having a reason to feel guilty. Only to realize he fucked up as well and will try to reconnect with a man he has broken.
We will probably be sent on some angst laps just like a race car ironically XD
Eh, I do think Leo has a bit of an ego. An ego doesn't necessarily mean that you outwardly treat people bad, but we have seen Leo looking down on other racers (not even remembering their names). He does react strongly to others talking negatively/criticizing him (not punching ppl or directly calling them names) BUT inwardly he reacted strongly to JJ criticizing him when they met. Leo has an ego, but it doesn't mean he's an asshole.
My deal is that Leo's ego won't let him admit he loves JJ because "ew cringe, I called him my fortuna ew". Even his recent conversation with JJ focuses on how it will help Leo with his racing because Leo can't outwardly admit he loves JJ and needs him not bc he (JJ) is his fortuna but because he misses JJ and wants to fix their relationship. In the new chapter, Leo would rather ask to be fwb than admit he wants JJ back. Leo didn't call JJ during their breakup and even tried to find hook ups bc he wanted JJ to make the first move to avoid admitting he wants JJ back. He blames losing his fortuna, not losing JJ's love and support, for his "bad luck", which is not actually bad luck but it is him both not taking care of himself and not listening to others about the race.
Sorry for the late response!
This is so beautiful put together.