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So I saw a lot of people asking for the spoilers... I got it off somewhere else but here you go guys! (This managa really isn't worth reading trust me)
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This novel is not happy ending. This even has detailed rape and torture scenes, heartless characters, cruelty and don’t expect any love more like possession and obsession.

The gist of the story is that there is no major villain. The story revolves around a misunderstanding that impacts MC’s relationship with both MLs. It has majorly just the three characters, the MC and two male leads whose relationship, revenge and actions takes up most of the novel.

MC is a noble who pretended to abandon the ML (khalid) to save him when they were kids. ML was hurt because his whole world was MC. MC did it to save ML from his father who could be said to be a lecherous person. If the mother of MC hadn’t interferred then Khalid wouldn’t have been kicked out so miserably after being whipped. Ecen after thrown out of the estate, khalid tries to reach knox but instead sees knox smiling at another servant and finally concludes that he has been abandones.
MC was the only light in khalid’s miserable life.

Later in adulthood, the MC’s family was killed by the second ML (Peltian) who disposed of the crown prince and became emperor. The MC’s family was supporting the crown prince, that’s why they were killed. However MC was secretly helping the emperor and was under the impression that the emperor knows it’s him who helped him defeat the crown prince. So when his family was killed he was shocked and thought that he was abandoned by the emperor.

Basically the guy who was delivering MC’s messages to the emperor didn’t tell the emperor that they were from MC rather he prentended that it was himself who helped emperor, this way he betrayed the MC and got all the benefits at the end.

Now MC was captured and khalid asked the emperor to give MC to him as a slave so he can take revenge. Khalid and emperor are deeply bonded as brothers so emperor granted him this request.

Now MC thinks he has to repay khalid for the hurt he caused him while abandoning him. He still had the child in his heart. He first tried to obey khalid for whatever abuse he threw his way, knox accepted it all because he wanted to pay back khalid for the pain he caused to the one he loved. That’s why knox doesn’t commit suicide right after his family falls and becomes a slave willingly so that khalid can let go of his resentment and be completely happy.

Now it is very important to note that the 100 chapters in the novel constitute of the abuse knox suffers. This abuss and the thoughts of Khalid and emperor about being happy watching knox suffer tells the readers that this relationship is based on not love but obsession, revenge, and twisted possessiveness.

Khalid badly abuses MC (Knox) physically and sexually.
He and emperor treats him like an object less than a human being. During the first rape scene, khalid thought that he has no intention of making the sex pleasant fpr knox. He wanted knox to hurt. After few days, khalid starts finding knox lovely however he is disgusted by this and tells the emperor about it. The emperor offers to help him with knox’s slave education and khalid agrees. This is where second rape scene comes and once khalid sees knox crying miserably and his face drenched in tears, he thinks that this is the sight he wanted to see. He wanted to treat knox like a being that is lower than human and just a sex slave who couldn’t expect any consideration and must accept everything khalid throws his way.
Emperor tells khalid that this is how he should treat knox because he doesn’t deserve respect. He is just a possession, an object.

The sex scenes are horrible with slapping him to keep him awake, fucking him in turns for the whole night, not letting him rest, teaching him to suck their dick first thing in the morning as slave. It’s horrible letting him ride a wooden horse, use dildos on him and double penetrating him, keeping him tied to bed and fucking him for days even though he begs not to. Calling whore, prostitute, beast and wven saying that knox will cum even if an animal fucks him. Khalid even makes a bet with emperor to see if MC is loyal to him alone and knows who owns him if he doesn’t cum while someone other than Khalid fucks him. Emperor fucks him and MC cums so in anger khalid takes off his belt and hit his perineum and hole with it several times while asking MC to keep his hole open with his own fingers and ask for forgiveness again and again. It’s horrible through and through.

During all this abuse knox understands that he is not being loved nor respected but it still hurts him. Because that child he abandoned in past is still in his heart. He wants to pay back khalid anyway. He wanted to commit suicide but couldn’t because he still has a debt to pay to khalid.

Once MC slaps the belthias guy who betrayed MC and Khalid first slaps him twice in front of that guy for punishment and then further locks MC in a dark room for a week. MC completely loses his mind from that time on and submits his self to slavery. Here khalid has no qualms treating knox badly because that is what he wanted ro do. To make knox miserable and hurt him. He preferred emperor and belthias deron who is now a confidant of emperor over knox. To get knox out of the basement after a week, the emperor says to khalid that a week in solitary confinement is enough and then khalid decides to get knox out. Once he gets knox out and sees knox losing his mind, he thinks that now I’m the only one knox can depend on. This is how everything should be. From that moment on, khalid still abuses knox and rapes but his abuse during rape has significantly lessened because knox now completely gives in to khalid. He abandons his noble self and accepts himself as a slave.

All this abuse and how khalid keeps sharing knox with emperor, one time saying he is the only master but not declining the emperor’s request to let him fuck knox one more time. To get emperor in the punishment knox faces and how knox was now notorious in the whole kingdom as the plaything of emperor and khalid.

Khalid also whips him so bad that knox’s flesh is torn and the head maid stops khalid because she thought if he whipped any more then knox will die. This happened because emperor lied to khalid in jealousy that there was something between knox and emperor after khalid was abandoned. Emperor spent sometime with knox due to his supposed running away incident due to which khalid doesn’t wanna leave knox alone at his estate and leaves him worh emperor to keep an eye on him. He even knows that the emperor can fuck knox but he doesn’t deny the emperor that right and only tells knox to keep in mind that khalid is his master. Emperor after seeing knox’s affectionate side falls for him and wants knox to choose between khalid and emperor. Knox thinks both are same for him but he still has to pay back khalid so he chose khalid.
Khalid after whipping knox then denies him treatment and that is the last point where MC commits suicide because he thinks he has paid back everything because when khalid was abandoned in the past he was also whipped. It wasn’t MC who whipped him but the one whipping MC was khalid.

MC and Khalid both used to love each other in their childhood before the abandonment. But their love and themselves were ruined now. What khalid did was not love, it was hatred and the author even explicitly adds this notion again and again that khalid did all this in anger. He was a mean person who ruined knox. The dialogues, the thoughts they are so degrading for MC by both emperor and khalid that both are not redeemable at all.

The major issue I have with this novel is that the author’s focus is highly on the torture and extensive sex scenes with degradation. However you won’t get much intake on the feelings or thoughts. Now tell me after such elaborate abuse that the author set for the readers and the thoughts of both ML’s about enjoying knox’s misery, can we feel the
Love anywhere? We can’t because there is no love.
After the first night where khalid shared MC with emperor, MC could commit suicide but he on the next day was helping khalid in handling state affairs. He even taught khalid how to dance though by this point he is just behaving like a slave. We don’t get much insight to his mental health by his thoughts other than that he has to pay back so it’s very hard to connect if he has resentment building for khalid due to all this abuse or not.

So basically after MC is whipped, he is in his room where he was unconcious. He wakes up goes out the estate, sees the carriage of belthias and rode it. He talks to belthias and mentions how he betrayed him etc etc. All of his converstaion is being listened by Khalid and emperor through a magic stone that is given to him by khalid and which is like a communication device controlled by Khalid. That’s how they come to know that MC is innocent. MC kills belthias and goes to his home. There he jumps off a window and commits suicide.

Now for the inconsistencies. Khalid hates MC because he abandoned him in childhood. But suddenly he is devastated and acts like he can’t live without MC when MC commits suicide and it comes to light that he was innocent. Khalid’s resentment wasn’t because MC helped crown prince, it was because of abandonment. So even if it comes to light that MC is innocent, how he turned 180 degree?


Then the argue that it’s because MC committed suicide but khalid has been abusing him cruelly for days and days. He whipped him so bad and denied treatment suddenly he is remorseful just because MC commits suicide? I would believe it if I could get an ounce of feeling that he loves MC? He calls MC whore, slut, prostitue. Treats him like one. That is definitely not love. It doesn’t give any feeling of love even to us readers!

Anyhow they somehow save MC. During the process khalid comes to know that MC didn’t abandoned him willingly. It was an act to save him. He even searched for him and was whipped by his mother for this reason so more regret.

After Knox tries to commit suicide and is saved by khalid and the emperor, he first tries to commit suicide multiple times. He is in so much pain that he can’t live but khalid doesn’t let him die. Then the emperor, khalid and everyone else decides to restore Knox’s status and give him back his property and his runaway cousin who is only left from his family.

Since knox can’t die so he decides to take revenge. He does some shenanigans where he somehow convince khalid to help him cut off the emperors closest confidants and betray the emperor. Khalid kills them one by one at the order of Knox. It’s heartbreaking bcz they are completely innocent.

Khalid is in significant pain due to his betrayal to his fellows who were like brothers to him as well as the emperor.

Later when it comes to light that Knox is orchestrating all this, Knox use one of his three pardons (which was granted to him by emperor at the time of reinstating his status) to save himself from any punishment.

At the end, Khalid kills the emperor and decides to kill himself too because he concludes due to some more events (like emperor raping knox again because he thinks that why khalid can stay by his side after abusing knox but not emperor so to leave his existence in knox’s life like a scar he rapes knox again) that as long as emperor and he is alive, Knox will be in pain.

Once the emperor is killed, Knox is left behind as the only royal family member alive (from his mother’s side) to ingerit the throne and becomes the king. He let’s khalid be arrested for the murder of the emperor and let him be tortured brutally for one week. Later when khalid admits in front of everyone that he killed emperor by his own decision that knox pardons khalid from death sentence and thus keeps him as his pet (someone to do his biddings) and calls him “Khalid, my pretty dog) which is in contrast to what he used to call him in childhood (my pretty khalid). Knox was waiting for khalid to betray him and prove that whatever khalid did was not love. However khalid thinks it was love.
Lastly MC, after suffering from khalid and emperor, he also now bore resentment and hate. He kills innocent people for his revenge. He even takes relief in khalid’s suffering. He suffers from the after effects of abuse he faced at the hands of khalid and emperor.
The end of the novel feels very empty with no closure..... It's just a sad ending ngl.

Read the spoilers and the ML lets the emperor rape the mc and JOINS TOO?? IM OUT