I think that's why initially he didn't want to have sex with him, because he knew him as a child, but also, I think what's happening to them is uncontrollable.
dont you read this and think its horrific? just because there's no monsters or supernatural in this doesnt delete the horror. the people around the protagonist make this an horror, because he has nowhere else to escape. he is all alone in his suffering
Ooh he looks a lil freakyyy this is gonna be goooooood (except for the grooming (?)Part)
I think that's why initially he didn't want to have sex with him, because he knew him as a child, but also, I think what's happening to them is uncontrollable.