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What happened? What was the point of the story. Im sorry im fucking lost. What the fuck was ml doing? I mean at first I understand he wanted to be a bitch and cage the uke and what not. But after he realized he was the fucking problem what the hell was he doing? What's the point of making bombs, acting like dick and obsessing but wanting to die. He might be mentally unstable and depressed but he's fucking dumb. Nothing makes sense. None of his actions.