Dw, i use to feel like this. When everyone is pressuring you to have a dream it often makes you not dream about anything at all. I use tohate waking up, waking up to go to school because what was even the point? The only reason why i drew out in public in my school was for attention and got upset when people were better than me.
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It will be okay. Life is more than feeling this way, though it feels like it will consume you. Do not say you will never amount to anything, the future is so unpredictable. You have amounted to something, you put in the work to be able to attend university. That is something that takes strength. It is okay and quite frankly normal to not have dream......