fairy dust

This shit had me gripping my seat. I was sweating, tearing up, getting mad BECAUSE WHAT!!! I don't even know whether there are plot holes, or if I'm too stupid to catch every detail, or if the plot holes are on purpose? I don't know but this was one hell of a read. Depicts family life in such an odd but raw way. I'm confused, frustrated but also glad about the ending. It doesn't feel right but at the same time I know it is really the only way to end this. Much needed after the whole mess, so I like it. I want to read this a second time to understand everything better but at the same time, I do not wanna put myself through that rollercoaster of emotions again!! Generally I liked this so much and I was ugly sobbing here and there n this made me feel tons of stuff

honestly surprisingly good story? their characters are very interesting and it's refreshing to see just two complex stupid men start liking each other. while the 'trope' may be a bit cliché, it's got lots of original bits and that's what's important.
there's some stuff that irritates me though. their first s3x scene was a drunk one and that makes it kinda unconsented but honestly, the author managed to do it very well. like, still checking up on each other throughout of it. and the morning after, the blonde guy didn't straight up regret it, so he was still by his senses when it happened. so i guess that makes it a little better.
also, i WISH the author worked on their character arcs a bit differently. the blonde started out with despising the brown haired guy, and it progresses to him really liking him. the problem is that this kinda happened in one day, at the beach. it's just odd how someone can go from very strong hatred to mild liking in one single day. there should've been hella more chapters in between, with his liking starting out as mere curiosity, while still concealing his feelings. and then it would've went on much smoother. but yeah, it doesn't bother me that much.
i think it's good that the blonde isn't opening up right away. their dynamics fit oddly well together, their problems and traumas aren't all that is interesting about them, and the filler scenes are just wholesome and adorable. i don't even read that much bl except for a few expectations, but this one is surprisingly well done, except for a few things that can be overlooked.