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A lot of people think that having masochistic tendencies or any kind of fetish has to do with you being a victim, you being in a pitiful position at some point of your life, and although it is true for a lot of cases (usually the more extreme ones), it doesn't always work like that, it can be very minor details from our lives that make you take a different turn, and I was glad that this was mainly about two people with different tastes struggling with it and not about how "pitiful" the uke was for having these tendencies. I was really moved by this, Ido Gihou is a great mangaka.

I can't be the only one who likes this chapter, right? Like yeah, it was a bit rush but I don't think I hate Keiichi at all now. If anything, I think he reacted in a way he thought he wouldn't get hurt too. So after reading this chapter, I think I've revised my thoughts as to what happened.....SPOILERS AHEAD...AND SUPER LONG LOL:





So I think what happened is that Keiichi got super busy and stayed out longer than usual and Shingo became insecure. Subconsciously he was afraid of being abandoned again. While his insecurities piled up, he lost the ability of smell Keiichi's smell even though it was always there. This means that Keiichi NEVER stopped loving Shingo. It was due to Shingo's thoughts, insecurities, and jealousy that made him THINK that Keiichi was falling out of love with him and he thought about it so much that he made himself believe that this is what is happening. Does this mean I'm blaming Shingo? NO. Things happen. Neither of them are to blame. Sometimes we become blinded by our thoughts like Shingo.

But I don't think it's right to place the blame on Keiichi either. Can you imagine how hurt he must have felt when all of sudden, without him being any wiser to Shingo's thoughts, his lover wants to break up? I would have been completely blindsided if I was Keiichi! It would have hurt so much if I loved someone and suddenly they want to break up with no proper explanation. So I don't think either of them are at fault.

Their one mistake is the lack of communication between them. But any couple could have this problem. Sometimes, we think it's a smart idea to hide our thoughts and feelings even though it could come back to bite us in the ass. Perhaps Keiichi seems a bit off because he was anxious about what Shingo had to say. Sometimes we come off as standoffish and brush things off so that we can avoid getting hurt. How could we blame Keiichi for doing the same thing? It's a natural reaction. We draw back from things that hurt us. As for the suit thing, he's a professional actor. They care about those things. At least I think they do lol. Once he got the okay, he went ahead and grabbed Shingo.

So I'm actually glad to see this chapter happen. Shingo was able to express that he wants to stay with Keiichi no matter what. I'm proud of him. I think this incident made him come to terms with his abandonment issues and come to realize that it's not worth it to lose Keiichi. That he rather risk the possibility of being abandoned again rather than lose Keiichi says a lot about Shingo's growth as a person. That is a huge step for someone who always thought he didn't need anyone because they eventually left anyway.

AND THE RING!! I think it could possibility be Keiichi's answer to Shingo's abandonment issues. It's his way of saying, "I'll never let you go for as long as you'll have me." It was ONLY after Shingo adamantly said he wants to break up that Keiichi was whatever about the ring. Giving Shingo that ring was probably his way of telling Shingo that he could choose to be with him or not. That the decision is up to Shingo. But no matter what Shingo chose, it was Keiichi's promise to him that he'll be there for Shingo for as long as he wants him. However, it also meant that the moment Shingo decides to choose HIM then he will never let go and basically drown Shingo with the force of his feelings - thus, the feature where the ring will never come off again lol.

Anyway, I applaud you if you read all of my thoughts (⌒▽⌒) And wow, I got REALLY into this whole manga by going nuts analyzing it LOL ╮(￣▽￣)╭ But yeah, I think it's a pretty realistic view of a love that pulls you in and drowns you in it. They definitely fit into that crazy passionate love category that makes you either want to run away from it or throw yourself into it. And I'm glad these two decided to throw themselves head first into it.

I just love how in the full-body views there is this big-ass body and tiny head.