they make me so fucking scared of ever getting involved with somebody... love does seem like divine punishment
Love comes and go, it is inherently unique to each individuals experience. I myself am not monogamous, so although I love and do I tend to marry my gf I also dream of having other spouses or at least keep seeing/dating/ going out with others as well. Some people are the opposite, some are kind of a mix, going from one partner to another, others just don't engage on relationships or even the eros/romantic side at all. There's literally a whole ass diversity and even then therr won't be enough words to describe what people feel wholly.
My unsolicited advice is to not pressure yourself to fit in any label if it doesn't feel right, feel free to learn and even experience If it comes to you and you arr inclined to dwell in it, be happy, respect yourself and others and be healthy ^^
and following it w “no— always, you’re the cutest rn” cus makito realized what that implied…. my dog is getting older and anytime i have a thought like “i shouldn’t have gotten a pet” because it’s inconvenient at this point of my life makes me feel like a POS! esp since our pets. we are their whole world. they don’t ask to come into our lives. now, that she’s older, i think abt how i don’t play with her much, the places she hasn’t been to, etc. time is so scary and it doesn’t wait for anyone. i really love this manga’s retrospectiveness on aging, and death . it makes me want to take ahold of the people and things i love and tell them so :’(
endou is endearing. like yamai noted, his actions are see through, so honest. how can you ever see his blubbering as troublesome—enough to forget he was ever your friend and let others torment him? over something he can’t help?
kuneida let others’ words get to his head too much… yes, he’s a guy so there might be a sexual nature to the crush — but that doesn’t mean he planned on assaulting him… why was endou’s affections stripped of everything besides its sexuality? weeeeird
i don’t think i’ve ever read a story where the characters loved each other even a fragmentation of as much as cheong and “madame” did.