Rose89's Things

This word I mean I don't like being called ugly or someone being called like that .. and I still do the think is when I turned 18 years old I'm began to except this word . one day when someone told me this word I didn't cry or feel a shamed a bout it I just said oh yeah I'm not beautiful so it okay ilike it i dont have a nice skinny body either although I'm not fat I'm just in the middle I don't like seeing myself with a lot of makeup to convince myself that I am beautiful by covering myself in colours ididnt fall inlove with SOMEone and I don't think someone will ever fall for me I just love how my life is i draw I play games i read manga and watch anime I even read books and i am grateful for waking up every morning i don't have a close friend but in other hand I feel I'm complete with my ugly self with just me and that make me very happy even if I'm not except fully by people so is it that wrong to live and think like that ?? What about you ?

Okay so basically this a problem of mine i enter college exam and got 95.67 the problem is not here but my parents says they want me to go to medical school and with this icant go because it accept 99.88
Icried alot and i feel so depressed like this job it will be the only job that ican earn a living because of my toxic society my last chance was finally shatter and ifeel like shit idont have friend and my family blame for it and ijust sitting here with my depressed and crying ass writing to share this with u