Tina's Topics (130)

Hm now Jun (MC) is hearing ML's side of the stories from ML's sister. But I think most of those information are them being narcissistic and think they're being forgiving and kind.
According to ML's sister, she says ML is an attention where, he has been like that since he was a child. She denied any possibility of ML lack attention and emotional support from their family. She argues everyone has put up with him and his bs enough to consider as kindness.
She says ML ruined the family when he said he wishes for a boyfriend and being able to date a boy from his school during Christmas. She calls him a sociopath, has ADHD, attention whore and gay. And she also brags about having IQ of 137 while ML only has 119 IQ, saying that's one of the main reason why he's a lower being than her (mind you, she's under 12y old kid)
She tells MC that everything ML does is all lies and MC is a fool for feeling bad/pity. She even says the reason why ML's dad likes MC is because 1st he has good grade, 2nd it's easier to push ML to MC and let MC fix him for him. She literally says "how is that a bad dad if he wants him to be near a good person? To be honest, he was even nicer to ML after the incident at the dinner table. And the crab? He's overreacting, he loves crab, you're just being fooled by him"
***Y'all, MC has seen ML being beaten up like a stray dog by his dad before and seen all his family curse and scream at ML with the nastiest language***

Anyway, MC is now confused, frustrated and feels betrayed thinking everything ML does and say are all lies now. He thinks he will try to go along with Junwoo's previous follower's plan to take ML down (he ain't rational here due to his anger). But when he practiced and said "I love you" he cried as it's his true feelings towards ML. He still doesn't like how he's being manipulated by ML (or by anyone) so he won't let ML get away that easily.
ML still stalks MC as usual while acting nonchalantly

As much as I don't like pathetic bottoms. This one is due to his (medical) condition, his goal is solely to gain his strength and health back so he can go back to doing what he loves, playing piano.
No feelings, no expectations no nothing, if anything Eden only shows appreciation because he's kind and well-mannered. He knows his place and remembers his purpose.
The Top on the other hands, cold but valid as he is being requested to have sex with someone he doesn't know. But later he's also the one who wants to be closer to bottom (complaining and asking why Bottoms only hang out n talk casually w his employees).
Still rooting for the bottom, the top is pretty but meh but his coldness is valid, but he ain't gonna be able to get a lover (bottom) w that attitude

Man, why it gotta be a desperate af MC smh

Mc is now being dragged and forced to follow one of Junwoo's previous follower's plan.
He and other wants to get rid of ML through MC because now, the rumors of ML liking MC has spread. MC refused ofc because of how dumb af the plan is (cz Junwoo n his followers have negative IQ) as they wanna copy exactly how ML dragged Junwoo down, by labeling as a gay man.
They want MC to confess to ML while they record a video of it, or else they'd like to beat MC up if MC refused. So now MC acted like he agreed w the plan.
These mfs be loving Junwoo like they're gays themselves but do nasty shit, say nasty things and much more about gay ppl.
Anyway, currently MC is at ML's house cz his mom and ML's mom are meeting up. ML's dad still loves MC (cz he has good grades) and ML's mom continues throwing shade n disappointment towards ML during the conversations.

MC is a self-centered, rational, high achiever who doesn't like being dragged down or bothered in their way to success. He ain't good and he ain't bad, he knows it, he even knows if he has to choose a side, he knows he's NOT a good person.
Every-fucking-one loves Junwoo in that damn school, they admire him, love him, Junwoo is their definition of a "true man". MC was attracted by his (toxic) masculinity n his damn face like everyone else. But he will ALWAYS CHOOSE HIMSELF, Junwoo is n will never be that important compared to himself.
Yes, throughout the story, MC still hates Taesan, but not because of anyone, NOT BECAUSE OF JUNWOO. It's because of himself.
He knows he was not a good person to Taesan, he expected Taesan to hate him BUT Taesan doesn't which weird him out. Taesan constantly reaching out to MC to thanks and praise him for helping him (Yes MC did help him, not just once) which makes MC very uncomfortable n find him as a bother.
MC feels the need to help Taesan because he feels bad n think Taesan is pitiful, therefore in his mind, his help is not genuine at all so Taesan doesn't need to thanks, praise or even like him cz if MC was in his shoes, MC would hate himself (CZ IT'S A RATIONAL THING TO DO)

Like I mentioned about Shin Jae Hyun, he's so fr SMART.
Literally 4-5 chapters of Shin Jae Hyun telling Kang Jun (MC) his analysis of the whole bully situation n ML.
- Everyone in the school love Junwoo (ew), they actually love Junwoo more than ML. They both admire n love Junwoo. So when ML dragged him down n tossed him aside, everyone was and still in disbelief. And since ML used rumors to label Junwoo as "the disgusting gay guy who loves men's ass", everyone is scared of associated w him, so whenever they talk abt Junwoo, that's all they can talk abt, using that label to talk abt him. (They ALWAYS talk abt Junwoo cz they miss him n love him)
- Shin Jae Hyun knows ML is hella insecure and is gay. He said he knows ML is obsessed w MC even suggested MC to just kiss him if MC wants ML to do anything for him. He also pointed out, despite that, anyone who even dare to mention ML being gay at all will be punched, beaten down n threaten by ML. It's him being scared n insecure abt ppl knowing he's gay (boils down to his traumas caused by his family).
- Shin Jae Hyun points out the fact that the way MC is being bullied is very weird. N the fact that more than 90% of the bullying is from all other classmates is because they all have been jealous of MC (from being closed to Junwoo to being protected by ML AND in their eyes, MC is the definition of "Perfection", good background, have money, good grades and good at socializing).
- Shin Jae Hyun also says there r 2 types of ppl when they see or have someone who's "better than them" close to them. Either destroy n belittle them or want to become them. Junwoo wanted to destroy MC, ML wants to BECOME MC. That's why ML keeps trying and is pretending to like studying and always look irritated whenever he socialize w other (u can see it through him talking "buddy-buddy" w Junwoo's old followers).
- ML became close to Junwoo to wait for a moment to strike and destroy him. Junwoo's biggest mistake is allowing ML to be close to him (but that's on him because he saw MC as more of his competitor than ML).
- MC though still wants to distance himself far away from ML, he doesn't like it when ppl n Shin Jae Hyun talk badly abt ML. MC is also worried that if Shin Jae Hyun can see right through him, ML and everything, everyone may as well also know which is bad for his image (this gives him a lot of frustration)

I have been scrolling most chapters esp the sex scenes cz I fucking cringed n hate mixed feelings or any type of feelings AT ALL in a fucking FRIEND OF BENEFITS.
Bottom has strong personality n boundaries but again, he's too emotional for any situationship. Get your shit together.
The top can fuck off w his egoistic delulu ass

Ok let's point out some stuffs so far before part 4 is translated:
- ML is mentally ill, he's the result of his family treating him worse than animals while shaming and demonizing his sexuality.
- ML is traumatized n has no real or genuine interactions w anyone so far in his life so he knows NOTHING abt being a normal person or has common sense.
- ML is obsessive of MC, stalks him throughout the story, before meeting MC and even during the bullying.
- ML kinda moved in w MC for awhile before their fall out due to MC feeling pity for ML, so alot of his stuffs r at MC's place. At the end of part 3, MC tells ML to get rid of his stuffs out of his place cz he doesn't want to think of ML anymore, esp in his room. But ML refuses, he says he will take one at a time instead.
- MC n ML will be put into a different class together, it's a class full of good grades students (the 2 Junwoo's followers ain't in that class, and I'll be calling them 2 Mfs)
- Students in that class don't give a f abt anything/anyone besides their grades. So when they bully MC, they ain't physical, but manipulative, they humiliate and guilt trip MC into doing their homework or works in general for better grades (MC is always ranked 1)
- MC is bullied mostly by other classmates n students and the 2 Mfs. He got hurt physically multiple times too, the worst one was when someone put sharp things in his shoes. MC saw ML holding his shoes later after the incident so there's something going on there (later when they talk, MC tells ML that he got rid of the shoes already n ML reacts weirdly saying "Why? Ain't those your favorite pair of shoes? How can u just get rid of them so easily" as if he talking abt himself)
- There is 1 guy who helped MC during the bullying, but he was never upfront or wanted to be too involved w MC cz he doesn't want any dramas. He's like that to everyone, nice but never close. His name is Shin Jae Hyun (he will plays major part apparently since he's mentioned so often).
- ML is jealous of Junwoo, Taesan and Shin Jae Hyun. So later when MC doesn't want to go the school much anymore (due to the bullying even after ML forced and pressured MC to forgive n make up w him) but still want to be updated w the lessons, he asked Shin Jae Hyun for help but no response. This maybe causes by ML involvement because he keeps popping up around MC watching him closely + his jealousy.
- ML mentally towards MC is he loves MC, but scared of being perceived (cz his family literally beat him up n treat him like shit, even his lil sister who's probably under 12y old doesn't regard him as a human being)
- All ML learned is how to get to the top (cz his family is very influential n powerful) and throughout the time he stalked MC before using Junwoo to get close to MC, he thought MC would only like someone because they're at the top, for their ranks, their positions not for them as a person.
- MC still likes ML but he has always been rational, he also has his own ego and pride (good for him, we need more Bottom like him) so when ML forced MC to forgive him, he's very on guard and still stands by his original plan of getting tf away from ML. Throughout the bullying, he just wants everyone to leave him alone so he can study and graduate. Unfortunately, due to the bullying, he was unable to study n gave his best, which made him fall from rank 1st to rank 12th. ML got ranked 1 and MC said he wanna KILL him at that time cz he never lost his rank ever before (again good for him, his anger n pettiness is valid)

Anyway, they're in their last year of highschool already and we will see them graduate soon (hopefully)

They made up, well ML forced MC to make up w him n forgive him.
Overall, ML didn't "actively" participate in the bullying, he mostly just stalks MC like usual and stayed silent. It's the classmates who r jealous of Jun (cz his connection w ML n Junwoo, he's basically ranked high socially in school thanks to them) so when ML dropped MC by being rude to MC, they took it as an opportunity to bully MC. Especially the 2 mfs followers who used to follow Junwoo around.
Throughout the bullying, there was 1 guy who helped MC, but always pulled back before getting too deep w MC (he prefers no friends = no dramas)
Since ML still stalks MC, ofc he's jealous of that guy + Taesan, in his mind, him ignoring MC n allowing bullying is him trying to teach MC a lesson BUT he be delulu waiting for MC to run back to him n apologize.
According to ML's mindset, MC loves anyone who's at the top of social ranks so he gotta show how helpless MC will be without him (he even thinks the reason why MC liked Junwoo was because of his rank). So he was very shocked when MC said Nope, I liked him cz we used to hang together n I liked him for his face etc.

Anyway ML refuses to let MC go so he tries many ways to gain forgiveness from MC (MC ain't that forgiving, tho he still likes ML, he's very on guard now)

Not the author giving a dildo's traumas.... as everything he has experienced before meeting MC