Cold Feet's Things

Asking cause I don't know anyone irl who can answer this, but if you can: how did you move on from feeling absolutely lost without dreams, purpose, and identity?

Inspiration by chance? An unforgettable encounter with another person?

I genuinely don't understand how people just 'somehow' find a way out and begin living a LIFE for real and I'd like to know if anyone has an experience to give some insight - or can at least relate to/understand what I'm talking about.

What pictures would you include for a personal aesthetics board?

Describe the most "off" or "unique" person you've seen/known where if someone asked what your impression of them is, all you can really say is "*name* is just being *name* you'll know when you meet them".

There was one classmate of mine who I've spent like a big chunk of my years in school with and not once did I feel comfortable around him. Whenever I'd talk to him it'd like I was being dissected and observed like a lab experiment. If I had to describe him he constantly switches between being a friendly guy who's generous/respectful and a verbally unpredictable, unhinged, flirtatious (guys and girls, he'll say shit to whoever he's chatting with) , out-of-pocket, gets in your space, serial-killer vibes sort of guy.

His respectful side is like the typical popular nice guy in stories who asks normal, surface level questions and gives good advice if you ask him. But his other side? It's like a combination of the MC from Golden Boy (english dub), the naked bubble butt clayman from that "Hey Stranger" youtube video, and filthy frank/pink guy.

He was good-looking/pretty, smart, interested in world affairs, and he was friends with many of the other childhood classmates and they were much more normal. They'll say jokes with shock factor our of irony (not to the extent of him), but when it comes to discussions with teachers it's clear that they care about human rights/equality and aren't incels.

So he isn't associated with any sus people but he's definitely unsettling because of his words and his vibes without any actual red flags. Lots of people found him attractive anyways (I can't argue against the physicality part), and it really weirded me out.

Gifs, screenshots of tweets, memes, one-liner sentences created by your sleep deprived brain, whatever resonates. If someone vibe checked you/asked what your mental space is, what would you send?

(No country, dubstep, or church music please but anything other than those are A-Okay)

I'm cool with niche stuff (ex. Death Grips) but the main thing I look for are v i b e s. Even if they're gag songs.

I usually veer towards lofi, hiphop/rap, RnB, indie, progressive metal, ambience, synthwave, post-rock, post-metal, trap, and experimental that includes elements from any of the mentioned or anything else.