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Consuming romance and smut materials everyday bc i could only wish to experience an inch what they're having ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ how does other people do it, be in a relationship even after a break up while here i am still fantasizing what it feels like to hold someone's hand and go on cute dates despite my age
People i talk to say petnames and holding hands are cringey for couples and im just thinking how lucky they must be to have someone to be able to do those cringe stuff (▰˘◡˘▰) ive been too accustomed consuming smut due to loneliness that i cannot see the day of letting them ho just bc ive grown way too old to be consuming and fantasizing (￣∇￣")
My only wish is for younger people to not grow up like me, it's very dark and lonely out here. Also, trying to change your format of writing is harder than I thought haha. I just needed a place to vent off since none of my family and friends knows I've been feeling like this, everyday, for years now. It's frustrating, depressing, yet I cannot tell them that because it's too shallow of a problem. Sorry.