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Im bi but same

I wish I knew what to say in this situation, but if it helps at all, I’m here to listen.

Ohmygod that's horrible
Is this a usual occurrence (if so is there anyone you can talk with/ do you feel confident getting some professional help since how you're feeling is affecting you not only mentally but physically- i guess writing your thoughts out this way is also a good outlet but i still think if you have someone you can talk to who can reassure you in person then that would be more effective- ahhhh i can't even begin to imagine what your going through but it sounds really painful ╥﹏╥ - i really hope you feel better)

Also I don't think being unable to hurt yourself is a sign of weakness - it's more that your strong - you subconsciously understand the consequences to your actions like hurting yourself is not going to get you anywhere other than just put you through even more pain, you're already hurting enough, you definitely don't need more.

And i just wanna say that you don't need to rush to feel better, or think you're hopeless due to the way your feeling because you're feelings are valid and sometimes, it just that recovery can take time and is often a slow process. This is just a suggestion but at times when somebody close to me is feeling down, i try to remind them of their positives, what's good about them, what they are good at, or even just compliment them because at times when they feel they are worthless, you just need to move away them away from their negative thinking and just direct their attentions to the positives. I really, really hope you feel better.

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Do you have anyone in your life to talk to or trust? I’ve been here and tbh still not anywhere recovered but it’s manageable. At first it will feel almost cringey to talk about how you feel to those you know and it’s normal to feel like they will pity you but, you will have to accept its not pity, they just care for you and it’s hard to see those we care for in this state. There’s nothing wrong with how you are feeling and tbh it takes courage to even acknowledge how you are feeling and seek out advice even on random sites, it shows you are ready to reach for help. Asking for help may feel awkward and tbh it took me 3 years to even say anything but It did help to know that I wasn’t alone anymore. Everyone says to go to therapy and I also recommend this but I understand if your self conscious or weary about it, definitely take small steps to not overwhelm yourself further . Any real advice I can give you to help are only things that have helped me cope with my emotions when I get really bad so hopefully these can be of use to you:
talk to 1 person in your daily life you can trust or even right it down on a piece a paper everything you are feeling, and what you gone through. Releasing all your emotions and pain can give you relief to finally let it all out.
This may sound high key cringe and it was for me when I first did it but it works funny enough, write down 1-3 mantras that are positive things about yourself (yes even if you have self hatred I understand but i can asure you, you are a lovely person so actually puts some even if they are silly or small) on a mirror or a notes page in your phone. Say these mantras to yourself everyday either in the morning or at random.
Definitely start a journal!! Explode your daily feelings into a notes app or paper and pen, don’t think about grammar or what your writing just write exactly what pops into mind just to release built up feelings for the day. Once you wrote it down take a deep breath and close the journal and rip the page up into tiny pieces or delete it. You don’t want to over analyze or read back what you wrote as the point to this is to release feelings to lift the weight and go about your day not constantly thinking about it.Don’t forget on a different page that you will keep to include things that made you happy even if very small!
Set up app group on on your phone with apps you like whether games or reading , your music app, coloring book apps, puzzle apps etc. apps that will force you to focus for when you get overwhelmed, it can help you calm down. ( you can go on YouTube and type in bineareal beats and listen to this if you feel anxious it’s help calms you down. definitely use headphones because drowning out everything will work best).
Take breaks throughout your day to close your eyes and take a few deep breaths, what your going through isn’t easy and you need to prioritize yourself, You are worth it! And your feelings are valid! When you get home from school or work take a moment to collect yourself and grab a drink or a snack and just relax.
Take up a new hobby, engrossing yourself in something will help focusing on positive feelings things like making doodles on sticky notes, pick up a new show/or book series, color, crafts , collect something like bottle caps, pens, pin, stickers, music, art, etc ( I like to collect rocks everyday I’ll find a rock to bring home after work lmafo it’s rather entertaining to my small brain)
Goals and routines. They absolutely suck ass but are extremely helpful to keep your mind focused and help with the negativity. Small goals btw don’t set anything to big to not cause disappointment if it doesn’t get done. Things like drink a glass of water everyday, if you have a messy area (not saying you do just generalizing) pick up two items and put them away everyday, eat a full meal if you can, if your in school and homework is piling up do part of an assignment a day do work on it but not overwhelm yourself.
Lastly Reward yourself! Even for the smallest accomplishments like getting out of bed. You are really strong and deserve recognition and to treat yourself for making steps forward.

Hopefully some of these helped and I’m sorry if it didn’t, I don’t know your situation but I understand the base of your feelings and what you are feeling is completely valid!, don’t hesitate to respond if you need anything, I have no medical background so I have no guarantee that I can help but I’ll try lol. We’re all strangers here lol but it’s helps to know even random people are looking out for you , specifically BL readers we stick together lol (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
Hopefully you get better stranger I wish you wellヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~

Lmafo I think I missunderstood what you meant I’m sorry

I don’t really know if there is any way I can help you, but I just want you to know that even saying this on a website where no one knows who you really are takes a lot of strength and courage. It’s hard to be open in that way, regardless of who you’re saying it to.
You are by no means weak for continuing. You are strong. I know that it can feel like you’re weak, but that isn’t the case at all. You’re still fighting and that’s amazing. It just means you’re at a really really low point and even that is probably an understatement. I don’t know if it will help, but if you don’t have anyone you can talk to off of the internet or just don’t feel ready to, feel free to reach out to me. Sometimes, even just talking about it with some random person on the internet can help relieve some of the pain you feel. If you can, of course go to a therapist so you can talk to someone who really can help you. If not, try to start slowly letting others know how you’re feeling. It takes time, but the fact that you even put that comment here shows that you can do it.
Try writing things throughout the day that you enjoyed. It can be the smallest things like maybe you saw a cloud that just looked nice. That’s good enough. Just try to keep note of some of the things that you liked or made you happy each day.
I obviously have no clue what you’re going through, but it’s ok to take time to heal and mend yourself together again.
Once again, you’re not weak. Fighting doesn’t make you weak, no matter how much you may want to stop. You continue to show how strong you are. You probably hear this everywhere, but things get better. Even if you don’t 100% believe it, just hold onto that hope so you can see it for yourself.
Lastly, if you ever feel down about yourself, please try to remember that there are people who care about you for a reason and you deserve to be treated like a human being, not trash. You are not a burden to anyone and there is nothing wrong with talking to people about how you’re feeling. I hope you start to feel better soon because you deserve it.

I know we don't know each other but I pray you find the help you need. Everybody has a purpose in this world and you are no different from everybody. I hope you will be able to see your worth. Much love and stay safe.

Ppl on internet can only help so much.. can you please see therapist nearby you. Some of these problems can be clinical too and can be treated. Hope things get better for you <3

How do I listen to the audio it's saying I need to sign up ╥﹏╥

I dont know how to listen to the audio, sorry. All I know is that they are making/made one but I think ots only in Korean but idk. Tell me if your figure it out!

OMFG AUDIO DRAMA? AGHHHH AGHHHHH SJBSIDBWOANAIAJ

I don't really care if i dont understand the language, i just want to hear them AGHHHHHSHSOSNSKS

WAIT OKG AND AUDIO DRAMA PLEASE I CANT WAIT Σ(っ°Д °;)っ

I mean I have the site but I don't understand so here's the site: https://audiocomics.kr/comics/view/127

ZANK U SO MUCH BESTO FRIENDO (*_ _)人

is this the term y’all use on this website ahahah ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄

Read Bj Alex and you can never go back to not using that term