I keep getting reminded by the phrase "Love is all about timing." You have to grab it the moment you have an opportunity to do so.
If you've messed up all of these chances and still continuously fumble at the most critical moment, maybe you didn't truly love that person? I don't think it's fair for SooAe to be the only one who initiates this relationship. At least give her something to work with. An explanation, an excuse, anything at all.
I hope you don't make more events to regret about. Remember, there's no such thing as a rewind button in life.









Tsundere hard now, regret later.