If I found a boy who likes BL I'd treasure him forever
My husband doesn't mind my reading BL. He's learned a lot about it from me. Sometimes, when I'm reading online (for a laugh) he'll stand behind me and read the character's' words aloud!! Hahaha! It' so embarrassing!! He even asks sometimes if my favorite stories have updated. He's not into to though.
Yes same (though only with friends not boyfriends or whatever. I have some difficulties to get attracted to others, romantic relationship scare me x.x) but like I have a lots of boys in my more or less close friends and they (almost) all know I like BL and it was bit awkward at first because I don't know why I'm always a bit embarrassed about this but all the freaking time it was easily accepted and we often joke about it (I even got some to read yaoi. (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ )
I feel the same too. Being scared of having romantic relationships so I've never been into one despite having guys every now and then trying to who develops feeling for me and try and wants me to be in a relationship with them aside from me never experiencing the type of like that I would want to be in a relationship with someone because all of the boys I had a crush to I could only imagine being friends with them and that's all I want to have between us too. I would usually do something that will definitely turn the other party off so they'll back away and the reason why I told the current guy about my obsession to BL is because most guys would think twice about it right? But it didn't happen though it was really nice to find someone who's willing to adapt and get used to the things that you like despite it being 'weird' or 'unpleasant' to other(most) people.
I don't have guy friends but I opened up to one of my female best friends about it though she don't mind I still feel awkward whenever I would end up talking about it unconsciously and would end up quickly cutting that topic off, it's a good thing that you and your friends despite being guys don't experience that 'awkwardness' whenever BL is mentioned.
Well i should say, reading all the things that you wrote, that I realize I'm in fact pretty lucky. Maybe it's because of my field (I'm in an art field, since this year, I'm in the comic strip field)
I mean, I kinda feel awkward because I got the idea that some people can find it weird and be disgusted by it, but, in the fact, almost all my friends (girls and boys) know that i'm a fujoshi ( for god's sake, even people that I don't know from times to times had already heard of me like "the fujoshi" " the yaoist" by some of my friends XD and that's basically how we meet /SBIM/ ) In my circle (more or less since high school, but like, I met my best friends in middle school and it with her that I watched my first yaoi aka junjou romantica) I have lots of friends who enjoy yaoi (each one to various degrees). i even made my sister read some, and, I think the amount of my friends reading yaoi must be like, 75% ? And all the other just accept it and laught when we go in our little world or fangirl mode or when we share series in publiclike some drugs dealer XD So it always felt pretty natural to me but I kinda realise it's not the same for all people (and I find it sad )
As for my problem with romantic relationship, well it's complicated. It's not only that I feel a violent rejection from my body when someone confess to me, but also the fact that I really don't feel anything past friendship for anyone. I kinda grow up thinkng maybe I'm aromantic, I hope not. Or maybe it's just me reading too much yaoi and shojo and watching romantic stuff, imagining love like some extraordinary stuff when in fact, it's pretty common and have nothing of extraordinary ?
I'm envious I wish I have someone(a friend) whom I can show my obsession towards BL and is obsessed about it too, too bad I don't have anyone like that around me. since I live in a really conservative country the thought of homosexuality isn't really acceptable to them. Most says that they don't mind but they would not want to have a family member who is homosexual. They aren't against when it comes to other people but would be the moment it's a family member.
I don't know a violent reaction physically but in my case I would end up thinking that the other person is lying and can't believe them, and the moment the person I like(crush) ends up liking me back my feelings would sink and disappear and would tend to feel repulsed to the person, like everything they do displeases me. And when I would often tell the other person I like them when I think the feeling might turn romantic but in the end after that the feeling's gone. It's so complicated and confusing that I can't even understand myself.
I have read this three times and I still love it
Four times now