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I feel obligated to state it, so:
The fact that his body reacted means nothing.
Sa's victims often feel guilty for their body reacting, however it doesn't make the act any more explainable. It's a horrible thing no matter what.
Their body reaction is automatic, smth they don't have control over with. It's absolutely normal and valid.
It's preventing body's being injured, also ""soothing"" pain, if I could say so.
It's nothing to be ashamed for, it's valid and fully understandable.
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