
people like Dr. Han had always rubbed me the wrong way: strangely calm and well collected, fake smiles a lot, manipulative and calculative, and hard to read (-.-)

dkfjalkdfja LOL it's not just you because I literally know people like this IRL and not a big fan of them. Anyways, the main couple personalities in yaoi is actually a popular trope in romance I think because in "Skip to Loafer" https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/skip_to_loafer/ The main couple personalities are literally the same and I can't come to really like the main guy in there either. (it's like a shoujo manga) But both of the protagonists are precious beans.
i love the realistic aspects of feeling insecure and dealing with self worth when you come to like some one so much :)