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my whole life (im 18) i've been very sure of the fact that i'm a cis girl, and i've been happy with that, having long hair and dressing femininely in skirts and dresses and all that.
lately though?? i've been going into just my underwear and looking in the mirror and i'm really unhappy with what i see. i dont like that my chest isn't flat, i don't like that i'm not taller, i don't like my hips or my shoulders or my voice. it's really bothering me. i've even considered going out and buying sports bras to make my chest flatter even though i've never liked how sports bras made me feel. i've never felt this way before??
today i reread a manga about a trans man (to strip the flesh by tooda oto) and it hit so hard i ended up crying, and lately i've been reading things like gender bending mangas where guys become girls and girls become guys. also... two months ago, i had a dream where i grew a dick. sorry, tmi, i know, but i feel like its relevant.
i want to say that i'm pretty fine with being a girl. i still like dressing up in skirts and dresses and i like girly things like sappy romances and cute plushies and fashion and pink and blah blah blah. i'm fine with being a girl, i think i'm just upset with my body.
i don't really know what i'm saying here lmao, but i think i just needed to get it out. this doesn't really cover everything i feel about gender, after all. if you feel similar to how i do at all and you feel seen, please say so!! i want to know i'm not alone in this weird state of maybe-i'm-trans but maybe-i'm-not.
Im not someone who major in psychology or with any related field that talks about your problem, but as a certified gay guy.
I think you should first clarify if:
1.) You like a girl or attracted to them romatically
2.) You want to change your body morphology more masculinely
3.) You want both 1 and 2
Because it really change the whole concept of gender for me. I already observe different gay guys, some are attracted to boys but still like being masculine (like me)
There are some who like to cross dress but still like being a guy (Idk if they are romantically involve to a guy also)
And there are some who like a guy and also want to look femininely.
Nowadays, I think being attracted to the same sex and liking opposite body type (being masculine or feminine) should be separated since many people already have different preferences.Clarifying this thing will make it more clear
And in your case of are you a transgender or not, Im not sure maybe there will be one commenter who feels that same way to you. I hope you follow and trust your heart and have the confidence to walk on the path you choose!! (づ￣ ³￣)づ
(I'm f 27) Not trans but my best friend is trans ftm
I did lots of questioning about gender and sexuality around my teens but turns out I was just demiromantic demisexual and liked boyish clothes and feminine clothes
I'm not sure if you're having gender dysphoria or body dismorphia but if it helps from what I observed from my trans friends and colleagues you could try out masculine fashion or non binary just to try it out and see how you feel about it
There's more identities than just girl and boy maybe you just want a more neutral body or masculine but does want to stop identifying as a girl
Just try it out and also educate yourself in a safe environment and from people that understand more of the subject
Be safe out there
I meant "doesn't want to"
i kind of hate that kyo cheated on eri. absolutely an awful thing for him to do, but there was also no evidence prior that would show him to be the kind of person who would do that? i understand that he isnt fit for eri at all, but i really liked his character and i thought him being a genuinely caring and good person made the conflict so much more interesting... making him cheat feels like the author is kicking him out in such a weak way :/