
one of my biggest pet peeves is when they complain about not wanting to kiss their partners because they swallowed their c*m. like ok?!! it’s your bodily fluids! he just ruined the entire vibe for me. ( ̄へ ̄)

Yeah, I knew someone who dated a guy that was like that. He was the biggest POS person but every time he got head and she wanted to kiss him afterwards that's when he was creeped out by. He straight up refused to kiss her back for the rest of the day and she used to feel so bad. I honestly never understood that with guys, idk it's like why even bother asking for head then if it makes you THAT uncomfortable to kiss back.

I know, I did too. Dude was the worst guy to be in a relationship with. Not just because of that but he was a bad person to begin with. Probably, I really don't get that. It's okay to get head but not okay to get a kiss afterwards? You asked for it so why would it make you grossed out and uncomfortable. Men can be little bitches sometimes. Not all of them but a good portion of them, IMO.
i know this is smut, but i truly feel bad for the FMC. i like to think that she uses sex as a way of escaping from her toxic environment & to discover who she is outside of her family dynamics.
while i do want her to go with the MMC, i understand her hesitation bc it’s not uncommon for abuse victims to escape one abuser & end up in the grasp of another abuser. :/