I...have never had such a painful dream before. I woke up and realized that I really fucked up. I wish I had done so much more when I was younger. I wish I had talked to people more. I wish I hadn't been so shy and quiet. Bc now I'm so alone. Ive never felt the loneliness as much as I did when I woke up and realized that I was no longer on high school the boy I had talked to in my dream was already married and had kids with someone else. There would be no next time to sit and chitchat. I want friends. And love. And unfortunately with the way I grew up, I'm not sure how to go about that.
Hes so pretty