I can’t read this anymore… can someone pls spoil me on what chapter Mido realizes Jichan didn’t abandon him and was on the verge of death trying to make it to the meet up spot? I need to see Mido SUFFER and then I can drop this
basically chap 33
MC IS INFURIATING. A DUMB BITCH. I AM SAD AND ANGRY FOR HIM SO WHY IS HE SO STUPIDLY KIND AMD FORGIVING OF OTHERS. HE DESERVES BETTER. HE DESERVES JUSTICE
I agree, it makes my blood boil on how easily he came to see him and how easily he let him kiss him when he just raped him like 3 months ago, it makes me mad he forgave him so easily
Bro this MC is so stupid why does the author make him so senseless at times just read up to ch65 and why would you wait until you’re almost dead to tell people you were poisoned? Why would you try to casually attend a meeting like normal when you know you’re coughing up blood, have hours to live, and they’ll definitely notice? You could say he’s given up but that’s no true either cuz he literally dressed himself and went to go attend his meeting like bro where is the logic…
If you really read from the beginning, you will notice that he's a suicidal person
He can't k*ll himself because of his skill/power
So when he was poisoned, he is unconsciously wants to die so that he can follow his friends
And he noticed that the poison works
He's not senseless as you think
And at that time he don't know when the poison will kill him completely
Even when the ML noticed what had happened he still doesn't want to say anything
Do you know a common phenomenon where suicidal person become totally different where they're becoming kind, happy and people thought that they're just having good day or they able to get out of being suicidal? Then, he/she unalived him/herself afterward.
Same applies to old people who started to get healthy after years of fighting their illness and they died due to the disease.
So, same to MC. He still trying to see whatver sht he want to see before he die.
its the opposite really he was traumatized and it led to him being depressed and suicidal and that does things to a person plus he was well enough to manipulating hyeon into thinking he had control over him so really contrary to his naive appearance he was the one doing the manipulating which was a crazy plot twist that i didn't see the signs of
He didn't know he'd cough out blood all he knew was it will slowly kill him. Plus when you know your dying you would you rather sit in loneliness or interact with people you bonded with while waiting for that poison to act up
bro wanted to make the most of his last days
Can someone spoil if the mother comes back alive? I need to mentally prepare myself lol
I've checked the raws and she's back and safe! For now at least let's hope that doesn't change in the future
I don’t think the ending was that confusing, it was just bad lol
Everyone who wishes Param suffered more needs to get their emotions in check lol this is the best way for not only character development, but also happiness for both of them!
Honestly, I think the author did a really fantastic job creating this story. I love how all three of them are fucked up in some kind of way and showed how they chose to each navigate their internalized issues.
Does anyone have other recommendations for similar plot lines? I really love the isekai/historical/fantasy setup! Or even just any of those three. I also low key like his background as an ex-slave cuz it adds angst and a sad backstory to his character setup LOL so anything along those lines too
FYI y’all Chika is literally in his mid-40s but just has the body of a 16 yo
This is so frustrating. Does anyone have spoilers? When do the MC and ML learn that cesare is actually the god of lust and is controlling the MC’s emotions? I can’t keep reading without knowing if there’s an end to this aimless angst…
Time to let it marinate. I’ll come back in 20
Chapters or so. That might just be the peak of pain then tho (⊙…⊙ )