Jay

I've never talked about it IRL, but since I'm anonymous here... Ummm.. so growing up my mom used to repeatedly say stuff like "I'll put you in an orphanage" or "I'll leave and you'll never see me again" and stuff like that whenever I did something she didn't like. It still stings a little, even though she never acted on those words. And as for actions, she dragged me to a hospital with empty promises, in which I was drugged without consent and hospitalized in the psych ward for a while because she was "tired of my tantrums".

Phew, that turned into a trauma dump session, didn't it? Haha

OP you’re just gonna ask without sharing? Drop the deets.
For me it would be my ninth birthday and I told me mom and her response was “So?” Shiz stuck with me over a decade later and drove into my head that I didn’t matter
Everyone’s mom sounds so terrible.

"You don't have asthma, it's all in your head"

"I am a child from hell"

"I want to break your neck"


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I’ve been suicidal but I’m an atheist and afraid of no after life (or the off chance there is one and I burn in hell) so I’ve always been to afraid to go through with it. I was on my PC all the time and didn’t want to do anything else and was so empty and my dad was just frustrated with me not doing anything and ignoring everyone and everything and I said I wanted to kill myself so he told me to just do it.

“Sangyang:The Wanderer is mid” like how dare you say that to me

"Pay me back the money I spent raising you first." Said my mom, when I talked about suicidal thoughts. Good times (▰˘◡˘▰)

“I hope you kill yourself today (〜￣△￣)〜
or “cant you just kill yourself“
yeah...
but I feel fine telling this since I'm anonymous ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~

I'm guessing that the reason you got sent to psych ward also came from her? Hmmmm its okay to say here what you can't say in person. I actually do think that strangers won't judge, instead will give you some comfort unlike the people that you know personally.

Oh gosh,,, you were just a kid...

Oh... Honey, imma break their neck instead and say "it doesn't hurt, you're being delusional"

Oh... You're father must've been wondering what's going on with you, he must've said those words out of frustration, honey. I'm so sorry for that, really. You're not alone, okay? If something came up or you started thinking those thoughts again, talk to someone —to me

No, fr, mine say that too

Yeah exactly lol
She kicked me out of the house in the middle of the night. I spent 24 hours outside, without money, until my friend and her mom found me and brought me back home. And the next morning she took me to the hospital and told the doctors that I ran away.

Real

Like I can’t even be happy that it ended because what about me? I get so attached easily to the characters especially those who had a very hard time.

I also want to protect those who characters who always protects the others even if it means getting hurt—treating their body like some shield ugh!!!! Like, come here!!!!

I feel like crying

İ only got 2h of sleep today because i really want to continue reading the “I don’t want this reincarnation " i finished that novel with 560 chap within 2 days and a half but now i just wanna cry. My head is aching, I’m sad, i wanna run away and I GOT A FREAKING JOB LATER THAT’S WAITING FOR ME AND I CAN’T EVEN SLEEP (im not angry at you, im just bring delusional here, love u)

It’s even worse when you’ve grown up with the work and watched it grow.