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I’m going to lose a year off my life every time I see someone say that Ash is the greenest of flags. I am begging you to reread the end of the main story.
How are we forgetting that Ash showed that he was in control of his actions and thoughts during his rut (in the conversations after his rut). He said he had no regrets knotting Lyle and that he meant everything that he said that Lyle found degrading and hurtful. He was aware enough to understand what he was saying and thinking and doing.
This means we know he was aware enough to know that Lyle was crying, begging him to stop, screaming no, that he was in pain. He was aware enough to know that he fucked Lyle unconscious several times.