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Making a post to clarify some common questions

Q: When is the next chapter coming out?

A: It is currently marked as 'hiatus' on the english verison of Lezhin so we don't know. It could be back tomorrow or it could be another week or so. The Korean version is updated regularly so you can buy the raws on Lezhin KR or find other places to read it.

Q: What's this about an audio drama and where can I listen to it?

A: To listen to the audio drama you'll need to download the 'DalVoice Plus' app ( https://binnieasmr.tumblr.com/dalvoice). It's easier to get it on Android devices than iOS. Once you have it downloaded you have to purchase 'honey' which is the point system that will let you buy each audio episode. Each episode is 20 honey and 100 honey = ~$10 USD. Highly recommend splurging because the voice actors are SO good, especially in the 19+ scenes hehehehe. ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

Q: Is this going to be a triangle? Who's the endgame?

A: Not currently a triangle because Minhyuk/Sooyoung is strictly one-sided. ML is currently Taeseung and will probably stay that way. You might have been fooled by TikTok, sorry.

Q: This is a really dark story, is it gonna get any better? I just want Sooyoung to be happy.

A: You and me both! But seeing the current direction I think it's gonna get worse before it gets better for him. This IS a story about gangsters and the dark shit they do after all.

This one comes with a trigger warning so proceed with caution! SPOILERS BELOW



TW: Choking play/asphyxiation

Sooyoung comes back to his uncle's gravesite because he has nowhere else to go, seemingly still moody about seeing Taeseung interacting with Yawon. The building manager comes up to him and tells SY that someone from his family stopped by the altar earlier to bring flowers. The manager doesn't know the name of the person but says that she thinks it's family because only someone who can give personal information about the deceased and their relatives are allowed to visit the altar. She gives SY a list of the people who signed in and SY thinks it's his father (he thought he was dead), but isn't completely sure due to the signature being unidentifiable. Then he sees 13 missed calls from Taeseung and ignores the 14th one -- too annoyed to take the call.

But then in comes Taeseung and he asks SY why he didn't pick up his calls. SY yells that he doesn't want to see TS's face and tells him to leave. THEN we have TS kneeling down to SY and addressing him informally (normally he addresses SY by his full name, in this scene he drops it to 'Sooyoung-ah' which is how people who are close address each other). He tells SY that he was surprised to see him like this because he thought something else happened and proceeds to forcibly kiss him, and SY immediately pushes him away. SY tells him he's crazy for trying to do something like that in a place like this. TS agrees and tells SY to go home and take off his clothes as soon as he's there and says that SY won't have to look at his face if TS does it from behind. And then TS says that if SY tells him why he wasn't picking up his phone then he'll lessen his punishment. Of course SY is stubborn and refuses to tell TS that he's sulking because he saw TS laugh in front of YW and then we cut to some punishment sex.

While TS is fingering SY he makes comments about SY gaining weight in his lower half because he's been eating so well. He then asks SY again what's made him so stubborn and angry, and that he won't let SY sleep until SY tells him. SY meanwhile continues his stubborn streak and doubles down on refusing to tell TS the reason. SY says "I won't tell you even if I die" and this brings out a strong reaction from TS and he replies "Even if you die? You can't say things like that Sooyoung-ah" and proceeds to hold down his throat. SY starts thinking that he can't breathe, and it's a strange feeling. TS tells SY to breathe, and asks if SY is going to keep protesting. SY briefly breaks away from TS to breathe and thinks about how something like is supposed to be normal to hate, but for some reason SY keeps feeling strange about it. Then TS goes back to choking him and comments on how SY is so tight around him and that this is supposed to be a punishment and yet SY looks like he likes it a lot. SY thinks he can only feel TS going in and out of him, and that he wants this to stop because this feeling (of being fucked while choked) is too strange and then that feeling culminates when he cums hard when TS lets go of his throat. Chapter ends with SY taking some deep breaths as he waits for more (?)

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Here we go, if you didn't think this series can get darker WELCOME to chapter 43. Definitely avoid if breathplay/choking is not your thing, but I love scenes that bring out SY's masochistic/honest side (as stubborn as he is) and opens him up to TS. I feel like he wanted this 'punishment' because it would've been SO easy to just tell TS how he felt, but there might have been a part of him that wanted to see TS's reaction instead and see how TS would punish him (he's had thoughts like this before in previous chapters). However as rough as this sex is I HOPE we get some kind of aftercare in the next chapter and not have SY just go straight back to work like nothing happened.

Until next chapter o/~

we get a new character introduced! SPOILERS BELOW as usual




Starts out with Sooyoung visiting his uncle's grave — he talks about how he's been doing well and eating well and that there's someone he's been seeing a lot nowadays (you know who XD). He says that that person is an unpredictable bully with a dirty personality but he he laughs well in front of Sooyoung. As Sooyoung leaves the site he notices the two bodyguards (arguing about letting Sooyoung in by himself) and gets alert, but it doesn't seem to be anything threatening.

In the car Sooyoung asks the driver to take him to Taeseung's company instead of back to TS's home. He thinks about how this will be the first time that he visits TS like this, and wonders if TS will like the initiative. When SY arrives at the building he feels nervous even though it's not his first time inside the place. He starts having doubts about being there and wonders if he should just go home since he'll see TS there anyway. Then he thinks about TS's potential reaction to seeing him here ("are you here because you miss me?") and blushes.

Cut to Taeseung coming out of the elevator with Sangchul chatting about business with a president Hwang and then SC mentioning that they're here already. Off to the side SY ends up hiding. He thinks to himself that he just needs to say one word, and as he's leaving his hiding spot to call out to TS he notices a woman approaching TS. The woman (her name is Hwang Ya Won) says it's been awhile and that it was rude of TS to suddenly hang up on her yesterday after saying what he had to say. They're a bit snarky with each other but the rest of their conversation is business-related and a bit of personal small talk -- she teases him about how he's grown into a charismatic gangster who meets all kinds of politicians. Taeseung notices that SY hasn't been responding to his texts and calls the driver asking where SY is. The driver says he that dropped off SY at TS's building 20 minutes ago. While this is happening Yawon mentions to TS that she knows he's seeing someone and wants to know who and TS tells her its none of her business. Then the driver tells TS he can't find SY and TS curses.

Back in the car SY thinks back to seeing TS interacting with YW and feels annoyed/jealous about seeing TS smiling at her.

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I'm so interested to see more of Yawon's involvement with TS (business and personal) and how it affects SY's feelings (will we get a possessive SY???). Kind of disappointed that the meeting with SY's uncle was short though (I want more flashbacks!!) but hopefully that'll get weaved in at some point when it becomes clear how TS is involved with SY's uncle's death. Until next week~

This manga is a lot to take in but I gotta say, the decensor work is absolutely *chef's kiss* Major kudos to the redrawer from the scanlation group for their contributions!!

Spoilers for ch 41 raws if you haven't looked at them yet!

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Starts with a flashback of Sooyoung coming home to see his uncle there stealing SY's bank account info/signature stamp -- uncle says door was open and that SY's father sent him even though SY knows he previously locked it. Uncle tries to be friendly/casual as he leaves and tells SY that he'll eventually pay him back. SY thinks about how back then that he believed his uncle because he was scared to be left behind, but stopped believing it as he grew up.

Now back to the present Sooyoung wakes up and thinks about how he's been waking up alone more often and that he regrets not seeing Taeseung in the mornings nowadays. He feels like a puppy who wakes up and waits all day for its owner to come home, and then gets 'praised' at night for waiting all day. During the sexytimes flashback SY cums in TS's mouth and TS says 'it's yours' and asks SY where else he wants to be touched so he can cum more. SY is of course flustered and tell him he's crazy.

After that quick flashback SY texts TS 'hamburger' and TS texts back asking if he's awake and to call him if so. SY calls TS and they have a surprisingly normal conversation about SY sleeping in a lot and what they're going to eat. Throughout their phone convo SY thinks about how routine it feels to expect calls and text from TS, that they live together and that he just spends his day waiting for TS to come back. Then he comes to the realization that all of this feels like they're ~dating~ and he freaks out and thinks that he's crazy (XD). Their call ends with SY telling TS that he's going to visit his uncle's gravesite today for the anniversary of his death. TS says okay and tells SY to take care. After they hang up TS tells Sangchul that he needs to make a call.

Once SY leaves the building he notices a car already waiting for him. He thinks it's from TS and gets in. We cut back to the chauffer on a call with TS and TS tells him to not lose sight of SY or else he'll kill him. The more literal translation is something like 'you need to keep SY on a tight leash while you're taking him on this walk -- if you let go of it I'll kill you'.

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So it looks like the author continues to use the dog/owner/leash euphemisms with TS/SY's relationship, which is obviously not healthy but it seems like that's how TS thinks of SY and vice versa since they both don't want want to acknowledge that their relationship can be anything more than that. And for TS it could be that he wants to recover all of his memories of SY and their past to fully grasp who SY is to him, so for now he can only think of SY as someone he wants to keep close to him (like a dog on a tight leash).

Also the uncle seems to be a scumbag and I get the feeling we'll be getting more flashbacks with him and SY when SY visits his grave.

I'm back!!

I didn't read the ch thoroughly yet but here's what's going on based on some rough trans:

SPOILERS!


Flashback to TS talking to Sangchul about the Sooyoung sitch. SC says SY probably would've died if he and Minhyuk didn't arrive earlier. TS says he overestimated Kang Il's discipline and didn't expect him to go that far with harming SY (so it was totally intentional that he showed up a bit later since he figured Kang Il was only going to hold him hostage or something).

Next we have TS giving SY a blowjob (almost as if he's trying to apologize lol). While this happens SY lifts up TS's face and tells him that he wants to touch him too. Then TS gets a lil aggressive with SY's nipples but doesn't put it in -- instead he grinds together with SY and towards the end SY begs him to do it like he usually does and put it in. TS tells him he won't put it in until SY is better and they come together.

Next we get a flashback to some political stuff that I'm not going to cover too in-depth -- basically Minhyuk is banging the mayor's (dude in the car) wife and a prosecutor guy who works with the mayor for purely political reasons. Both of them are involve in dealings with Taesung and I'm assuming there's some incentive for having those two specific people on Minhyuk's (and by extension Taeseung) radar. In the last panel Minhyuk says he misses Sooyoung.

I wish the uploader would wait for AT LEAST a few hours if not a day to upload the new chapter so the author can make some money on lezhin...

The TS/SY relationship was never meant to be your typical domestic lovey-dovey yaoi. As someone mentioned in another comment Taeseung, a mafia leader, is inherently not a Good Guy and all of his interactions with Sooyoung will not always be something we can objectively say 'yes this is wholesome'. HOWEVER, compared to Minhyuk who SY only sees as a dongsaeng/younger brother and who took advantage of SY when he was barely conscious I will pick TS over him any day, with the ultimate option of SY remaining single and happy (but this isn't the story for that now is it). Now as slow as the development is with TS/SY at least these recent chapters have SY in the process of sorting out his thoughts and feelings for TS, and possibly awakening to a masochistic side of himself stemming from the abuse/dependency he's experience from Jisung. Their relationship is neither healthy nor wholesome at the moment, but I don't think it's meant to be (yet) considering we're still only 30 chapters into a story with very slow pacing.

Although if you want wholesome TS/SY there's plenty of it on the author's twitter. Blackapricot draws them a lot so you can enjoy their lovey-dovey relationship there instead of the webtoon itself. (●'◡'●)ﾉ

now y'all know why this manga is titled the way it is my man Taeseung out here trying to put Sooyoung in a wheelchair by the end of this series good lord

ahegao sooyoung pushing himself on taesung's dick is a whole mood and i'm 100% here for it