arcticxs July 7, 2021 2:12 am

I'm not here to fan any flames of hate but I find it ironic that Korean twt is whole-heartedly celebrating Minhyuk's birthday (7/7) when he could very well be off'd or put into a very baaaad situation next raw chapter. (⊙…⊙ ) Haha anyway I just wanted to mention that the comments regarding Minhyuk here vs Korean twt are like polar opposites lol (they absolutely adore him over there even AFTER ch 52).

Also to end this on a positive note I would LOVE a side story of Yawon and her girl Yeonsoo. I didn't know I had a thing for the female mafia boss/shy girl trope until I witnessed these two in ch 54.

    Pan Shu July 7, 2021 10:57 am

    I think that's because they're able to enjoy the characters and read this fiction without taking it very seriously, as any adult should.

    YaoiIsLife July 7, 2021 12:24 pm
    I think that's because they're able to enjoy the characters and read this fiction without taking it very seriously, as any adult should. Pan Shu

    Orrr maybe because he has a pretty face? Lmao, it's kinda obvious why dude.

    Yuki July 7, 2021 4:57 pm
    I think that's because they're able to enjoy the characters and read this fiction without taking it very seriously, as any adult should. Pan Shu

    Ikr some people take this too seriously. They're so pressed about Minhyuk, like this is the first time they see someone simping for a shitty character just because they're hot. This is yaoi my dudes lol

arcticxs June 30, 2021 3:11 pm

tl;dr - Yawon makes the decision to cut ties with TS's gang, MH gives SY the documents he's looking for even though SY still doesn't remember anything, and MH convinces SY to run away with him, only for that plan to be foiled as SY finally reunites with TS at the train station.

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We start off in Yawon's compound — her members talking about how the balance of the gang factions is tipping over now that Zhou Yu Long is back in Korea and that Yawon needs to reconsider her ties with Taeseung's gang. Yawon's brother comes in and suggests that they need to cut off relations w/ TS and essentially leave his gang in the dust. Yawon isn't keen on this idea but eventually agrees. (Side note: Yawon and her girl remind me of TS/SY lol)

Cutting back to Sooyoung and Minhyuk — SY is tending to MH's wound and thinks about how he can't remember any events since being in the hospital, and even then he can't recall the person who was with him. When MH grabs his arm SY feels that his sensation is familiar, and pushes MH away telling him that he's trying to remember something. MH then reaches over SY to grab an envelope and tells SY that it's what he's been looking for — it's full of court documents that point to corruption, and explains that once SY is able to remember everything he'll understand what's inside. Then he asks SY if he remembers where he was, or if he just has no memory of a specific person. SY replies that maybe his memory will be back soon, and MH tells him to keep the documents for when his memory is back. Then he changes topics and tells SY about their current situation. MH tells SY about Zhou Yu Long's faction (Kowloon/Hong Kong) and how their goal is to get rid of the Snakes (TS's group) and MH had to take down the senator and Mayor Kim to protect the organization (I think he's still hiding the fact that he's a mole to SY). SY vaguely remembers the senator and MH reaffirms that yes, he's the guy who tried to kill you. Then he tells SY that it's still dangerous for him because now that senator Jeong is gone the balance will be broken and it'll tip towards ZYL and his group, possibly causing a mass exodus from TS's faction. MH finally tells SY that TS's group can't protect SY, and SY can't even protect himself, so he asks SY to run away with him because he can protect him. SY is hesitant but agrees, and MH jokes that this is like a lovers escape, especially because he's running away with a handsome man (SY replies there's nothing handsome about his busted face).

Now we cut to the train station. MH tells SY that he knows they're probably being tracked so he needs to buy two tickets — one under his credit card as a diversion, and another in cash that they'll be using to escape. He tells SY to stay put and he'll be back. SY being SY obviously does not listen and thinks that he should get MH something to drink from the vending machine. As he walks over he notices the 500won coin and once he picks it up he sees Taeseung in front of him. When TS calls his name SY begins to recall the sound of his voice, his face -- and he feels memories from a certain time flooding back. Chapter ends with SY unable to discern TS's expression upon seeing him again. (honestly the last part was kind of vague so I could be wrong on this -- someone correct me if so)

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First of all, YAWON!! I love boss babes and she does not mess. Next I gotta say, I kinda had a feeling the author was going to use the 500w coin to bring them back together, but I'm not mad. Although SY still isn't guaranteed to have all his memories back (he could be remembering TS from their high school days and not when they're lovers) so that's more drama to be explored. Also Minhyuk is definitely gonna get a rude awakening next chap when he comes back and gets caught by TS. I can see him being kept alive (but probs tortured) to get as much info as possible out of him about ZYL/what he did to SY. Until next chap!

    Colorless_skeleton69 June 30, 2021 3:38 pm

    I have so much mix feelings about this like one part of me really just want more about this gangster stuff I want to understand more to it how did it all started what did minhyuk did to become the mole why did he become the mole other part just want to drop it the story I don't even care for sooyoung and taesung love anymore it clear as day that they are going to be together this author wanted a love gangster Love story but she fail at that by filling up half of it with so much unnecessary shit. FYI thanks for the translation(▰˘◡˘▰)

    pervyjiejie June 30, 2021 3:38 pm

    Thank you (´。• ᵕ •。`) ♡

    sofocle June 30, 2021 3:39 pm

    First thank you for the summary. Absolutely perfect. I think Minkyuk will manage to escape. Kill him so soon? It is one of the main pg. If he dies then what are we talking about? Mafia and fuck? But I think it’s the worst scenario for Tae. If you think about it Minkyuk gave the boy the chance to know things about his lover. Things he would never have known. Tae kept the boy in total ignorance. And now his dealings will be discovered. Interesting decidedly interesting

    missynyanko June 30, 2021 4:19 pm

    Thank you for this!! (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

    Kiko June 30, 2021 5:47 pm

    MH either gonna see TS and leave (smart of him) or he would try to get SY and SY prolly gonna go with him but I don't see that happening, also TS expression makes me think that he thought SY wanted to leave him bc he knows the SY he know wouldn't just let ppl grab him and he will fight back so maybe it's a whole new shit where he thinks he wanted to leave

    Ishuca June 30, 2021 11:04 pm

    I don't understand what's inside the envelope?? Don't tell me taesung's sin is not just loan sharking....but also drug dealing and gun trafficking......!!! I can't morally accept that

    Ishuca June 30, 2021 11:09 pm

    Was taesung aware of senator and mayor's shitty deeds ,e.g. killing a boy during sex and burying him in the construction site???????

    Suguru July 1, 2021 12:10 am
    I don't understand what's inside the envelope?? Don't tell me taesung's sin is not just loan sharking....but also drug dealing and gun trafficking......!!! I can't morally accept that Ishuca

    Did you really think Taeseung was just a loan shark? He is a mafia boss, they do all kinds of trafficking and murder people. He was in charge of hiding the dead body for the senator. Sooyoung is not aware of all that, but we are.

    Ishuca July 1, 2021 12:23 am
    Did you really think Taeseung was just a loan shark? He is a mafia boss, they do all kinds of trafficking and murder people. He was in charge of hiding the dead body for the senator. Sooyoung is not aware of al... Suguru

    Yeah. Taesung sweet gentleness towards sooyoung and him not being a rapist like minhuyk made me soft for him. It clouded my judgment that he is a dangerous mafia. I can't morally accept that he helped that pervert senator to dispose the body....he helped him cover his horrible crime

    Deedee July 3, 2021 10:09 am

    Thanks for the summary!! Do you know what's the story behind their High-school days? I mean, I didn't even know they knew each other from that time until you mentioned it in your summary here. They have 3 years age gap so what's the story about their common past? Thanks in advance :)))

    sofocle July 3, 2021 11:54 am

    I ask this question to everyone, Tae Seung first saw Soo Young at his uncle’s funeral, so it was said, we know that he was involved in his death, we know that he and Kang Il were at the funeral. Then there are scans, where you see Tae punched by one, you don’t see the face, could be the boxer as no

    sofocle July 3, 2021 11:58 am

    Tae is not dressed like a high school girl, he has longer hair, he seems to be 20 years old. And this man strikes him. Then there’s the picture around chapter 20 I don’t remember, of an overturned car. And Tae, thinking back to this machine, says he lost his toy.

    sofocle July 3, 2021 12:01 pm

    My question is, if the boxer was already in high school with his ex Ji Sung when he had an affair with Tae? Besides, he’s not more likely to see his lover in the boxer, maybe dead, see the car overturned? And he’s obsessed with having him around and protecting him because he doesn’t want that to happen to the boxer, because he reminds him of this ex?

    Ishuca July 3, 2021 6:48 pm
    My question is, if the boxer was already in high school with his ex Ji Sung when he had an affair with Tae? Besides, he’s not more likely to see his lover in the boxer, maybe dead, see the car overturned? And... sofocle

    The car was a toy. His belongings tae didn't have an ex. And i doubt sooyoung and taesung knew each other more than that punch session in high school. That is when taesung was first hooked

    arcticxs July 7, 2021 2:25 am
    Thanks for the summary!! Do you know what's the story behind their High-school days? I mean, I didn't even know they knew each other from that time until you mentioned it in your summary here. They have 3 years... Deedee

    I believe it's implied that SY/TS might've crossed paths with each other via a fight in high school (SY as a 1st year and TS as a 3rd year). Due to Sooyoung's head condition he might've forgotten completely about TS but TS managed to remember him from the dream that he had in an earlier chapter. The author has confirmed on her Twitter that Sooyoung was Taeseung's first love so I'm guessing that Taeseung was smitten when he got beaten up by Sooyoung. ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

    Kiko July 7, 2021 10:26 am
    I believe it's implied that SY/TS might've crossed paths with each other via a fight in high school (SY as a 1st year and TS as a 3rd year). Due to Sooyoung's head condition he might've forgotten completely abo... arcticxs

    and when she said taeseung loves everything about sooyoung esp patting his head then he gets grumpy

    Deedee July 7, 2021 11:38 am
    I believe it's implied that SY/TS might've crossed paths with each other via a fight in high school (SY as a 1st year and TS as a 3rd year). Due to Sooyoung's head condition he might've forgotten completely abo... arcticxs

    That's great! I had no idea they encountered during high-school! Do you know which chapter exactly TS had that flashback about the past so I can go back and read it? Thanks a lot :DDD

    Deedee July 7, 2021 11:38 am
    and when she said taeseung loves everything about sooyoung esp patting his head then he gets grumpy Kiko

    So cute ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

    Ishuca July 13, 2021 8:21 am
    and when she said taeseung loves everything about sooyoung esp patting his head then he gets grumpy Kiko

    Author said that? Where can i find it

    Kiko July 13, 2021 3:43 pm
    Author said that? Where can i find it Ishuca

    On her Twitter

arcticxs June 20, 2021 10:57 pm

After doing a quick second read-through I want to revise a point I made in the summary I wrote (you can see it in my profile) —

It turns out this 'President Joo' is actually President Zhou. As in Zhou Yu Long (I think that's his first name?) who is Taeseung's biggest rival and has just recently came back to Korea. I totally forgot that the pronunciation of 'Zhou' in Korean is 'Joo' so that's why I thought this was a completely different character that was being talked about.

So YES, Minhyuk is confirmed to be the mole. He was talking to Zhou Yu Long at the end of the chapter confirming that he has Mayor Kim (who's allied to TS) under control.

    Haii June 21, 2021 5:01 am

    Isn't Jisung also in Zhou's gang?

    I'm handsome June 21, 2021 7:04 am

    Yeah i also want to know jisung hyung is part of them. It seems they form allies to fight taesung

arcticxs June 20, 2021 4:33 pm

This one is another emotionally charged chapter, mostly coming from Taeseung and his unbridled anger over finding Sooyoung. Some plot things I'm not happy about but we'll see how the author sets it up.

Chapter continues from Taeseung questioning Senator Jeong. We get a quick flashback to Minhyuk specifically telling the senator to tell anyone who asks that Sooyoung is dead and that he's buried in one of the barrels. He blackmails the senator to do this or else he'll release their sex tape to the press. The senator tells TS that SY is dead and that he killed him, but then TS starts questioning him about how SY died -- how was he killed, what his last words are, etc. He obviously doesn't believe SY could be killed by someone like the senator and proceeds to call the senator's daughter on his phone. The daughter is distraught hearing her father being tortured only to start having people come for her as well -- TS threatens the senator using his daughter, saying that he'll cut off her limbs and present them to the senator himself if he doesn't start talking. Finally after more threats the senator gives in and tells TS that he'll tell him who took SY and all the details surrounding it.

Now we cut to what appears to be either a dream or a flashback (I think it's a dream) -- SY is thinking that his body feels hot, it hurts a lot, and that he needs to get up leave this place. Then we cut again to Minhyuk on a call with a President Joo -- he's reporting on Mayor Kim's movements and that he has everything under control, even if another organization were to interfere. I think this scene solidifies that he's the mole and he's reporting to someone with the surname Joo. Anyway after his call ends he notices SY limping out and asks if he's okay since he had so many bruises. He immediately thinks that he needs to lie to SY about why they're here together and decides to tell SY that they're here to hide because TS (he refers to him as the President/CEO) is in danger. SY responds "...the President?" which leaves room for interpretation whether that means he's trying to process what's happening or if it's a sign he doesn't know who MH is referring to. Then SY asks MH where he is, why he's here, and mentions that he needs to return to somewhere, to someone. The chapter ends with SY saying he doesn't remember the details of the above.

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So looks like we might be getting an amnesia/memory loss trope added to the story folks. It was definitely foreshadowed by the doctor in earlier chapters but geez I was really hoping it wasn't gonna happen like this :( also I'm sad that SY will probably never remember he was raped and Minhyuk continues to act like nothing happened and even lies to keep SY apart from TS. And I have a feeling that he'll definitely take advantage of SY's memory loss :/ BUT TS also knows MH for what he is now and I absolutely can't wait for the TS/MH confrontation to happen!!

    sofocle June 20, 2021 4:43 pm

    You forgot to write something very important very important that the boy also forgot the reason why he went to investigate also forgot to have found a body in a suitcase. So even for Tae this memory loss was a wrong advantage?

    Deedee June 20, 2021 4:49 pm

    As always, thanks a thousand times for your detailed summary. I am very surprised by the plot direction and the unnecessary memory loss. Also, I really had no clue Minhyuk could end up risking it all for SY. I mean, taking him to his place is one thing but lying to keep him permanently is another. Doesn't he know how TS is crazy and dangerous? Does he think TS is not that attached to SY and won't kill him for what he's done? On another hand, I am glad we now know he is the main rival to TS and they have become officially ennemies. At least there's no more confusion at this level. TS and SY clearly belong together and MH is just there to add drama. I was kinda hoping he would be better than TS to SY but my oh my how I was wrong :((

    sofocle June 20, 2021 4:56 pm
    As always, thanks a thousand times for your detailed summary. I am very surprised by the plot direction and the unnecessary memory loss. Also, I really had no clue Minhyuk could end up risking it all for SY. I ... Deedee

    Tae doesn’t lie? I say we’re serious! You never told him he didn’t save him at the club, then "you knew my uncle" "no" when we all know he’s involved in this man’s death. Another question, "Are you hiding anything from me?" Answer "I’m not hiding anything from you" just that I’m a mob boss of the worst kind and I hide dead guys in my construction sites inside my suitcases. So, my lords, we must be objective here There is not one who does not lie They are all great liars

    missynyanko June 20, 2021 6:42 pm

    You’re God sent for providing this detail summary! Thank you (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ btw, I actually thought SY will lose memories soon because of all the injuries..!

    arcticxs June 20, 2021 7:37 pm
    You forgot to write something very important very important that the boy also forgot the reason why he went to investigate also forgot to have found a body in a suitcase. So even for Tae this memory loss was a ... sofocle

    I wrote a summary and part of that means I won't always capture all of the chapter's details. If you want to summarize the entire chapter page for page then please be my guest. I'm not a native speaker so I don't have the luxury to do something like that so most of my summaries come from using several translating engines + my limited knowledge of Korean to understand the bigger picture (meaning these summaries might not be 100% accurate all the time).

    Also I'm not really sure what you're implying — are you questioning why I think it's terrible that SY lost his memory? If so then it's terrible because it's a sign of worsened brain trauma that Sooyoung's obviously not getting any help to address. That and the potential for someone like Minhyuk who ALREADY has taken advantage of SY in a weakened state to do more to SY now that he has memory loss (like imprint false memories/feed him lies).

    sofocle June 20, 2021 8:05 pm

    No look I can simply thank you for your wonderful summary So my thanks are absolutely for you that you did a wonderful thing so I thank you for your wonderful work for making you understand what is happening. I was simply analyzing the fact that the boy also forgot why he went to ask for information and the speech of the corpse here forgotten is the bullshit made by the blond that the why he went to the site all this

    Luka Prime June 20, 2021 9:56 pm
    I wrote a summary and part of that means I won't always capture all of the chapter's details. If you want to summarize the entire chapter page for page then please be my guest. I'm not a native speaker so I don... arcticxs

    Dafuq you're getting pressed about? They didnt assume your quality of the translation (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜

    arcticxs June 20, 2021 10:50 pm
    Dafuq you're getting pressed about? They didnt assume your quality of the translation (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜 Luka Prime

    I didn't mean for the post to come off as defensive. I was simply stating that my summaries aren't totally gonna encompass the whole chapter so if I forget something then that's why. I also wanted to clarify that I wasn't a native speaker so my summaries aren't 100% accurate. Honestly I would love for someone to come in with a full transcript of the chapter because I'm sure there's dialogue/plot implications I might've missed on my own run through.

    Deedee June 21, 2021 11:07 am
    Tae doesn’t lie? I say we’re serious! You never told him he didn’t save him at the club, then "you knew my uncle" "no" when we all know he’s involved in this man’s death. Another question, "Are you hi... sofocle

    You didn't get my point at all. The problem is not MH lying to SY but him lying to everyone so he could keep SY forever and that implies risking his own life because who's that crazy to anger TS and think he would get away with it? It just seems odd to me to see MH go that far for SY knowing he is smart and knows how deal with his ennemies. Did he really think TS will never discover he is behind this kidnapping?

    Let's just say I wasn't expecting that turn of the events. I was very upset with the assault part because I was convinced MH would never hurt SY but then once he got what he wanted why pushing it as far as keeping SY forever? It's a stupid move. I just don't understand the author's choice at this point so let's just wait and see how she's gonna solve this sh*t!

    sofocle June 21, 2021 12:23 pm
    You didn't get my point at all. The problem is not MH lying to SY but him lying to everyone so he could keep SY forever and that implies risking his own life because who's that crazy to anger TS and think he wo... Deedee

    Minkyuk, being the spy, has studied Tae Seung for years, I honestly do not know how many years he works for him, he is risking so much because I think he really likes the guy, but since he is a dickhead, who thinks with his dick, has done yet another shit. You have no idea how I wanted to kill him after he hurt the boy. I think he put it all together, the fact that Tae wouldn’t have believed the boxer was dead, the fact that they would have looked for them, he’s too smart. I think he’ll be back with his real boss soon and take the boxer with him. If Tae finds the boxer now, he kills Minkyuk, honestly I don’t like it for two reasons: One the boxer won’t investigate him anymore, and will become totally a puppy Two mysteries about the death of the uncle and the other wrongdoings

    sofocle June 21, 2021 12:28 pm
    You didn't get my point at all. The problem is not MH lying to SY but him lying to everyone so he could keep SY forever and that implies risking his own life because who's that crazy to anger TS and think he wo... Deedee

    If Tae kills Minkyuk then what we talk about for imagine 40 chapters. Then honestly I want this guy to know. Tell him the truth. Who is really Tae Seung, who is behind the death of his uncle. It’s too convenient to get him back to Tae in this condition. He doesn’t remember anything. So he doesn’t investigate anymore, he’s a puppy at home and maybe he doesn’t even remember to visit his uncle at the cemetery. He must know everything about everyone. Then decide for himself what he wants to do. Tae and Minkyuk should both die for me. The boxer forgets them and makes a new life for himself.

    Deedee June 21, 2021 5:00 pm
    If Tae kills Minkyuk then what we talk about for imagine 40 chapters. Then honestly I want this guy to know. Tell him the truth. Who is really Tae Seung, who is behind the death of his uncle. It’s too conveni... sofocle

    Before Minhyuk stupid decision to hurt SY, I was kinda hoping he would be the one telling SY about TS's lies. It would have been way better. SY would have left TS and maybe get closer with MH while sorting things out. At the end of the day, TS didn't kill SY's uncle out of cruelty. It was pretty clear from the previous chapters that it happened without him wanting it and he felt instant regret to the point of being haunted by that incident even before meeting SY. So I think SY will forgive him and they will get back together after the whole truth is revealed. We still don't know what really happened. But now it's all messed up and Minhyuk became the main villain somehow. I have no doubt he will die at the end.

    sofocle June 21, 2021 5:22 pm

    The point is more than how the uncle died, the point is that he didn’t tell him. That will be the real drama. Was it an accident? Did he repent? Still going to find him? All is well. But the point is that he did not tell him. And then honestly he is a mob boss, not a civil servant. Do you imagine Tae changing his life for the boy? What becomes a saint? As long as they are together the boy will always be in danger. Always. I can’t imagine Tae Seung any different than he is. He wouldn’t be either. The fact of the boy’s memory loss has messed everything up. I honestly don’t see happy endings for them. There aren’t even premises. Tae Seung is a bloodthirsty mobster. And he never wanted to be different from who he is.

    sofocle June 21, 2021 5:26 pm

    Soo Young is sick. He is mentally unstable but I don’t think he would want to spend his life with a mobster, who kills kills and has a thousand intrigues. He is a good honest guy. I have never seen us here happy ends. The longer the story goes on, the more dramatic it gets, and the ending is all happy, at least for me there’s no

arcticxs June 10, 2021 3:44 pm

Still pretty upset about this chapter, but I took a breather and read out the chapter entirely and it ended up being pretty sad for both Sooyoung and Minhyuk (doesn't excuse the latter's actions tho). I also misinterpreted some dialogue when I initially skimmed the chapter so I added a comment at the end addressing that assumption.

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Continues from where the last chapter left off with Minhyuk hovering on top of Sooyoung after feeding him the medicine. He tells SY that he almost died this time and that he hates seeing his pretty face beat up and hurt, and SY responds that he's sorry he got hurt. MH asks him why and SY responds that he promised him that he wouldn't get hurt. That's when MH realizes SY is half asleep and thinks MH is Taeseung again.

MH's inner thoughts after this is him thinking that he would forgive SY if he didn't say anything (probably bc he doesn't want to hear him call out TS again), and also that SY appears to be asking for forgiveness by the way he's eagerly sucking on MH's thumb. He muses if this is what their 'promise' involved.

Now Minhyuk thinks that he needs to stop, not do things that he'll regret again, but can't resist the fact that SY is sucking his thumb so eagerly like a reward, even if SY thinks it's TS. MH finally tells SY that they should stop here, and that SY is sick and they can play tomorrow. BUT THEN Sooyoung flips them over and says "Because I'm sorry...don't stop..." (remember he thinks he's with TS, not MH) and MH's resolve is gone and he thinks that it's ridiculous for him to feel so angry and upset that SY thinks he's someone else, and that sex is just going to be like holding hands. He then expresses that he feels like he's not supposed to do this, but tells SY to relax anyway and puts it in.

MH tells SY that strangely he keeps feeling angry -- angry that SY keeps getting hurt, angry that SY can be so naive, and especially angry that SY only sees TS in front of him. He then notices SY is crying and asks him why he's crying -- and thinks back to the times he's had sex and would imagine SY's crying face and decided that he doesn't actually like it now that he's seeing it in person (note: I mistranslated this in an earlier comment thinking MH actually LIKED his crying face so I apologize for the inaccurate statement). MH then rambles that he didn't want to do this, that this isn't how he wanted to do this, and that he's just so angry at SY. He tells SY to stop crying and that he shouldn't be crying when MH didn't do anything wrong. MH then repeatedly tells SY that it's going to be okay, that SY is good at forgetting things anyway and won't remember this and finally tells SY to go to sleep and not to worry about anything else.

Cut back to TS questioning the senator — he's saying things like "you crazy thugs do you think you can get away with this? do you know who I am?" and we end with a blank expression from TS that pretty much seals the senator's fate to die next chapter.

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So in an earlier comment I had skimmed the chapters without analyzing the dialogue as much and mistakenly jumped to the conclusion that Minhyuk was a sadist and enjoyed the rape the entire time, but in fact he did not. Still doesn't excuse what he did AT ALL, but it's very sad that he was finally presented the chance to have sex with SY, but it was under the same circumstances as his first attempt and he could only feel angry and ashamed and had to deflect his guilt of raping SY by blaming SY for making him do this. I don't know if he can redeem himself after this, though, especially when he thinks he'll get away with it again because SY won't remember anything. And of course you have TS on the other end with a million thoughts in his head about SY and probably on the brink of a homicidal rage trying to figure out where he is. Really curious about the next chapter (hopefully in 10 days).

    Haii June 10, 2021 3:55 pm

    This ch. is just sad...

    rukiamara June 10, 2021 4:01 pm

    I'm just so disappointed and so sad with this chapter, thinking that again MH used SY when he thought about someone else...this is tough, and and that doesn't justify him...

    arcticxs June 10, 2021 4:10 pm

    I'm already seeing people trying to downplay this by saying Taeseung is just as bad/has done similar things but in those situations Sooyoung clearly knows who he's with and the sexual dynamic that comes with it (not saying it's a healthy one tho), but with MH (someone he TRUSTS and cares for like a younger brother) they had no pre-established sexual relationship where SY was 100% conscious and yet MH dived into temptation and (guiltily) raped SY at his most vulnerable anyway knowing that SY probably won't remember anything again.

    And yes ultimately both TS and MH are terrible people in their own ways, but the way MH takes advantage of SY's feelings for TS, doesn't stop when he's had several opportunities to stop, and practically victim-blames SY at the end is not something you can just downplay.

    rukiamara June 10, 2021 4:18 pm
    I'm already seeing people trying to downplay this by saying Taeseung is just as bad/has done similar things but in those situations Sooyoung clearly knows who he's with and the sexual dynamic that comes with it... arcticxs

    Exactly! TS did bad things, but what MH did is just unforgivable, seriously! Knowing that SY has some kind of filings for TS, and just for revenge use him when his unconscious... my heart hurt and I'm seriously considering not continuing this series, I'm so disappointed with society when I see comments like "they finally did it"...I just can't, what's wrong with you ppl...

    I'm handsome June 10, 2021 4:19 pm

    Sooyoung when he half asleep always calling for Taesung but again Minhyuk take advantage by doing it with him while Sooyoung thought he was doing it with taesung. I can't forgive minhyuk this time though he saved his life.

    23042015 June 10, 2021 4:22 pm

    Sooyoung was looking at his arm. Do you think he realized its not Teaseung ?

    rukiamara June 10, 2021 4:27 pm
    Sooyoung when he half asleep always calling for Taesung but again Minhyuk take advantage by doing it with him while Sooyoung thought he was doing it with taesung. I can't forgive minhyuk this time though he sav... I'm handsome

    Exactly, I know TS was an asshole to SY too, but what MH did is just waaaaay too much!! I never like him, but now .... I have no words...

    rukiamara June 10, 2021 4:29 pm
    Sooyoung was looking at his arm. Do you think he realized its not Teaseung ? 23042015

    I also noticed that, and to be honest I don't know if I want him to know that he was raped, I don't want him to suffer even more┗( T﹏T )┛

    Deedee June 10, 2021 4:50 pm

    Thanks a lot for the detailed summary! This one really gonna hurt :'((((

    Hidden Hermit June 10, 2021 7:01 pm

    Thank you for your summary. I’ve been stalking the raws and your summaries too since every chapter seems to end with a cliffhanger. Your summaries are always detailed and on point, this time I have a nagging question ... is there a reason why SY was crying even though he thought TS was the person he was having sex with?

    missynyanko June 10, 2021 7:23 pm

    Thank you so much for detail summary! You’re god sent! (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

    ManhwaAddict June 21, 2021 7:30 pm

    Thank you for the summary! You're summary was thorough and gave me an understanding of what the dialogue was between them. Dammit Minhyuk. I have a feeling he's going to die. Taesung is gonna be pissed. He already knew who the mole was but didn't stop him. Why did he have to become a mole? I hope we can find out what made him change sides.

arcticxs June 10, 2021 1:16 pm

And there you go. Minhyuk OFFICIALLY raping Sooyoung and enjoying the heck out of it. Dude could've gotten real character development but nope, gotta rape the dude while he's down. Hope y'all MH/SY people are finally happy he's putting his dick inside.

Not sure if I even want to write out the full summary of the chapter bc it was too tough for me to read.

    lou June 10, 2021 1:25 pm

    where did you read it?

    arcticxs June 10, 2021 1:28 pm
    where did you read it? lou

    Bought it on lezhin KR. Chapter came out just recently

    chickenpotpie June 10, 2021 1:35 pm

    I SAW THE CHAPTER I COULDNT STAND IT IT WAS JUST SO-

    Haii June 10, 2021 1:37 pm

    Wait Sooyoung didn't even consent???? Like did he at least ask of he can do it?

    ojd June 10, 2021 1:48 pm
    Wait Sooyoung didn't even consent???? Like did he at least ask of he can do it? Haii

    i think sooyoung didn't even know it was minhyuk, he was so out of it so minhyuk was basically raping a delirious man who couldn't even recognize him

    arcticxs June 10, 2021 1:50 pm
    Wait Sooyoung didn't even consent???? Like did he at least ask of he can do it? Haii

    Sooyoung was barely awake and thought Minhyuk was once again Taeseung. He didn't consent at all (mostly just mumbled that 'he made a mistake') and then MH started getting angry and full on raped him, blaming Sooyoung that he made him do this. I think the part that hurt the most was when Sooyoung started crying from the sudden penetration and Minhyuk told him that he enjoyed watching him cry. Truly an upsetting chapter.

    arcticxs June 10, 2021 1:50 pm
    Sooyoung was barely awake and thought Minhyuk was once again Taeseung. He didn't consent at all (mostly just mumbled that 'he made a mistake') and then MH started getting angry and full on raped him, blaming So... arcticxs

    the 'mistake' I believe refers to Sooyoung getting himself hurt again, not that he's having sex with Minhyuk because he's not lucid

    arcticxs June 10, 2021 1:54 pm

    I'm also mad that Minhyuk was actually telling himself to not do it, and that he had a chance to back out, but ultimately had no self control and went full speed ahead since he was so angry.

    Haii June 10, 2021 1:56 pm
    Sooyoung was barely awake and thought Minhyuk was once again Taeseung. He didn't consent at all (mostly just mumbled that 'he made a mistake') and then MH started getting angry and full on raped him, blaming So... arcticxs

    Thx for explaining

    rukiamara June 10, 2021 2:00 pm

    Seriously, I'm so mad, he thought that it's Taeseung again, gosh, my heart

    23042015 June 10, 2021 2:05 pm
    Sooyoung was barely awake and thought Minhyuk was once again Taeseung. He didn't consent at all (mostly just mumbled that 'he made a mistake') and then MH started getting angry and full on raped him, blaming So... arcticxs

    Did he notice that its not Taeseung later or did he not ?

    23042015 June 10, 2021 2:12 pm

    Please write a whole summary pleaseeee

    arcticxs June 10, 2021 3:46 pm

    Here's the full summary everyone: https://www.mangago.zone/home/mangatopic/12960226/

    I also want to address that I mistakenly said that he was 'enjoying the heck out of it' when he in fact did not. He was basically just very angry and frustrated and blamed not only himself but also SY for making him do this (which is still very shitty and bad imo).

arcticxs June 2, 2021 3:40 pm

The English version on lezhin is now on a 10-day release schedule like the Korean version. Next chapter will officially be out on the June 12th.

    Kiko June 2, 2021 3:50 pm

    Heart break after heart break this week :(

    arcticxs June 2, 2021 4:11 pm
    Heart break after heart break this week :( Kiko

    I know :( but I'm hoping the hiatus/new release schedule helps the author take care of her health

    Kiko June 2, 2021 6:32 pm
    I know :( but I'm hoping the hiatus/new release schedule helps the author take care of her health arcticxs

    Her health is the priority, I hope she takes good care of her self and come back when she can cuz I’m obsessed

arcticxs May 31, 2021 10:47 pm

To anyone who keeps saying Sooyoung has becoming a mindless, boring fuck toy -- are we reading the same story? Or maybe y'all are just skimming through it for the sex scenes. Because in my eyes Sooyoung still has total free will to do whatever he wants, and he's actively using it. From the beginning he's flexed his rebellious and strong-willed personality by 1) telling Taeseung he'd rather work than sell his body (this is before feelings were involved) 2) becoming a bodyguard when Taeseung told him he didn't have to work at all 3) choosing to fight back against Kang Il when he was already knocked down (and getting stabbed in the process) 4) snooping around TS's office and choosing to pursue the missing person on his own (SPOILERS) 5) choosing to meet up with Donghyun and go to the construction site knowing it could be dangerous. And during sex he has that mindless, ahegao look because he's having SEX -- outside of sex he's his normal self and isn't some kind of himbo sex-addict with a ball and chain locked up in TS's apartment.

And for people who are positioning the rough TS/SY sex as rape -- knowing how physically strong SY is and how he fought back against Taeseung (in the beginning), Jisung, bodyguards, and Kang Il (dude was a BOXER remember?) has it ever occured to y'all that if he really did hate the sex and want it to stop he would've physically retaliated like he did with Jisung in the beginning of the story? There's clearly a difference between SY's spoken dialogue and his actual thoughts when they have sex and the latter implies that SY is a closet masochist who's too stubborn to admit that he enjoys the rough sex. You can see he's never once tried to push TS away when they're fucking. And yeah their aftercare is lacking and a safeword would be great to have but they're not that kind of couple who will clearly lay ground rules like that -- their communication needs a LOT of work for sure...I mean look how stubborn SY was just trying to admit to TS that he was jealous of Yawon. Now I'm not saying TS is a saint nor am I trying to defend him -- he's a manipulative bastard and unhealthily possessive, but I'm tired of seeing people misconstrue Sooyoung's personality and think that he's some delicate flower child that isn't equipped to be with someone like TS. Sure he can ditch TS and be single, but this is BL and TS is still positioned to be his endgame (unless it ends in tragedy).

Lastly regarding the situation with the uncle, I feel like there's more backstory we haven't seen yet that will reveal WHY Taeseung has been lying about not knowing him, considering TS and SY supposedly knew each other in high school (maybe TS remembers and SY forgot). If TS did kill SY's uncle then WHY? Was the uncle actually a piece of shit that did shady things behind SY's back? Did TS mistaken the uncle as SY's father when he went to collect his debt? Or was it ultimately an accident and the uncle was caught in the crossfire of something? There's just a lot of judgment calls happening when we don't understand the full picture yet...

    Jinx473 June 1, 2021 2:06 am

    Fucking preach

    I.Need.My.Daddy June 1, 2021 2:22 am

    THIS!!

    island June 1, 2021 2:43 am

    thank you! its sad to scroll through the comments and only see ppl arguing about the sex scenes. i wish more ppl would actually talk about the story more!

    GODS WILL June 1, 2021 3:41 am

    Thank you cause someones saying that taesung is abusing him LIKE HUH? Bbg sooyoung would’ve been left

    Kiko June 1, 2021 4:56 am

    thank you for this, i was getting tired with these hoes only reading it for the smut and not knowing any character aside from the MCs then complain and tear down sooyoung whole character not really looking deep into what made him who he is and why isn't he as stubborn as before, that's the problem with bl readers they don't give a fuck about the story that's why it's rare to see a bl with good plot like this but the readers keep shitting on it bc it's not their typical bl

    Anon_aug June 1, 2021 9:00 am

    Well said

    Antares5000 June 1, 2021 11:28 am
    Well said Anon_aug

    I say my opinion, and I do not agree at all with your words. Soo Young is totally tamed, worse than a dog, he decides? What? Everything that the boy does on his own is totally manipulated by Tae, and you always forget to remember that he had him stabbed, the uncle, we don’t know it well, it is said it was an accident, but the point is that he did not tell him, She looked him in the face and said I don’t know him..

    Antares5000 June 1, 2021 11:33 am

    And then you say that there is free will, but then you admit that Tae is a manipulative bastard, then there is or there is no free will? He will only be there when the boy knows what really happened to him when he was stabbed, his uncle, and Tae Seung will show up for who he really is. Until that moment, for him he remains, one who is obsessed pathologically by the boy, almost as a shelter. Save the boxer and just

arcticxs May 31, 2021 2:33 pm

FYI for those following the Korean chapters — now raws this week due to unknown circumstances from the author. Not sure how long the break will be.

    Antares5000 May 31, 2021 2:44 pm

    In fact it was strange that the chapter had not yet come out in Korean, I follow the raws, can I ask you where you read it? Because the author’s Twitter profile doesn’t say anything.
    Too bad but I was so curious to know what was happening, we hope it resumes soon!

    arcticxs May 31, 2021 2:45 pm
    In fact it was strange that the chapter had not yet come out in Korean, I follow the raws, can I ask you where you read it? Because the author’s Twitter profile doesn’t say anything.Too bad but I was so cur... Antares5000

    I buy them on the official site.

    Antares5000 May 31, 2021 2:55 pm
    I buy them on the official site. arcticxs

    I buy every Wednesday chapters in English, since I do not understand Korean, thanks for the information anyway

    arcticxs May 31, 2021 10:58 pm
    I buy every Wednesday chapters in English, since I do not understand Korean, thanks for the information anyway Antares5000

    I buy them in English too but if you switch the language settings on the app to korean then you can access the Korean version and buy that one as well. The new Korean chapter was supposed to be out today but there was a notice about a break posted instead :/ hopefully the author is okay and prioritizes her health

arcticxs May 20, 2021 5:45 pm

A rather short one because a lot of this is visually self-explanatory.

Opens with Minhyuk confronting the senator dude and killing all of the henchmen. When he confronts the senator Minhyuk tells him to do as he says.

Then Taeseung arrives with Sangchul one of the henchmen report that there appears to have been an accident at the construction site while the senator was trying to cover up his scandal. TS sees the barrel with hair sticking out and clothes and orders the henchman to immediately dig it up.

Cut to Minhyuk getting out of the shower. He notices Sooyoung is waking up and tells him that he has a fever and needs to take medicine. Sooyoung asks who is it and where is he (he apparently can't see because injuries) and Minhyuk says it's him and that it'll be okay now. SY is mumbling that he needs to go back (to the construction site) but MH says he needs to take medicine and sleep and starts holding SY down so he won't hurt himself. SY says he doesn't like this and to let go of him but then notices MH's arm is bleeding. MH thinks [he's worried about me even though he has a bloody face...] and jokes that yes he's bleeding and it hurts so SY should stay still. He then asks if SY still wants his medicine and feeds it to him by mouth. End chapter.

---

Sooooooooo this is exactly what I feared was going to happen. If Minhyuk takes advantage of Sooyoung AGAIN while he's barely conscious there is absolutely no hope for his redemption. I'm not a fan of love triangles so I hope this remains one-sided if MH does something more than force-feed medicine. Although I'm gonna pray that SY falls back asleep in the next chapter and MH leaves him the fuck alone. As for what Taeseung is gonna do, I think SC might call MH and ask for his whereabouts and infer that he has SY from there and TS will go pick him up. And if MH does nothing to SY but nurse him back to health then I can see him getting on TS's good side and being able to position himself as someone more reliable/trustworthy (which would make him a more dangerous mole). Ooooor idk the author can make them fuck just to appease all the MH stans and SY won't remember anything again :/

    Kiko May 20, 2021 5:51 pm

    I think there’s something missing here, why didn’t MH inform SC or TS about SY, I think he’s tired of looking from the distance and maybe he gonna somehow keep sooyoung and tell the uke that called him yo keep it a secret, idk it felt like this was too important to keep it to himself or maybe I’m just going too fast

    arcticxs May 20, 2021 5:54 pm
    I think there’s something missing here, why didn’t MH inform SC or TS about SY, I think he’s tired of looking from the distance and maybe he gonna somehow keep sooyoung and tell the uke that called him yo... Kiko

    I think it was intentional that he didn't inform SC or TS because he sees it as an opportunity to position himself as SY's savior and potentially have SY see him more than just a dongsaeng/friend.

    марионетка May 20, 2021 6:11 pm
    I think it was intentional that he didn't inform SC or TS because he sees it as an opportunity to position himself as SY's savior and potentially have SY see him more than just a dongsaeng/friend. arcticxs

    I don't think so. Minhyuk is the mole. If he decided to take sooyoung that's mean he will expose himself and will betray taesung soon or later. But if he just want to act as a saviour again, why didn't he let taesung know that he has taken sooyoung away? From the raw it seems taesung was so angry

    rain May 20, 2021 6:55 pm
    I don't think so. Minhyuk is the mole. If he decided to take sooyoung that's mean he will expose himself and will betray taesung soon or later. But if he just want to act as a saviour again, why didn't he let t... марионетка

    because taesung will come and get him immediately, minhyuk wants some time with sooyoung since he likes him

    Colorless_skeleton69 May 20, 2021 7:42 pm

    Man I just wish donghyun went back with minhyuk to help sooyoung or someone come to his house and interrupt this

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