The author is making a story with its deepest emotions I like it so much they make it like a real from someone who lost his family by a servant like he though and time pass so he met a servant likes him . Lucaon almost throw all of his deepest shit inside him on Kyon, he was someone who was sensitive enough to cry on a dead tree and feel guilty for killing zeros but the loss of his family by someone he trust filled his heart with nothing but hatred and emptiness but now he realize that he is not that ignorant about Kyon so he wants to prove to himself no I don’t care about him so he deliberately hurt him but deep inside he knows he care he is fighting himself and in a state of confusion of his own feelings I guess the next chapters will be much better because he will realize his feelings and won’t know how to deal with Kyon and which side of him will take over either his hatred to servants or his love for Kyon.
that guy is so cute