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Been a while since I shared, actually it's only been a few days. Anyways, parents are out on vacation (won't tell us where since they want to give us surprise souvenirs) and leaving my and my stepbrother. If you guys didn't know this, me and my stepbrother (who I call Satan) are dating, now you know. Anyways, it's just me and him. Me, him, and his hand trying to hold mine and wrap around my entire fucking body but I'm just so damn nervous and shy to actually agree with it. Wow. I feel like a girl going out with her first boyfriend (no offense, again ladies). But then again, he IS my FIRST BOYFRIEND. I've been straight all my life, now here I am, dating my first guy. My stepbrother, no less. How do BL main characters handle this anyway?

ANYWAY, I have a fuckin problem and I need help. (I would write it in Wattpad/Fanfic format, but I need help right now)

I saw Satan (stepbrother) hanging out with this girl 2 days ago. I didn't much of it at first. BUT THEY SPENT THE WHOLE DAMN DAY TOGETHER YESTERDAY AND TODAY?! Like what the fuck. I seriously asked him what he wanted to do yesterday but Satan told me that he was going to meet a "friend". YEAH A "FRIEND" WHOM HE SPENT 2 FULL DAYS TOGETHER WITH. I don't want to misunderstand but this is just stupid depressing for my weak heart who couldn't even handle getting rejected by a girl I loved back in elementary. I'm a guy getting jealous at a girl for touching MY guy. Okay, can anyone tell me what to do? I'm planning on following him tomorrow, assuming he's ALSO GOING TO MEET HER AGAIN. Looking for answers on this site seems pretty dumb, but some of you guys are actually smart. And I need your intelligence and wisdom o' mighty internet strangers. If you want to contact me more, my DISCORD is raphael#6900
(P.S my birthday is coming soon on 8/29)

So just a recap for some of the folks who didn't see my previous post. BASICALLY, My stepmom (who married my dad 3 years ago) has a son who I like to call, 'Satan'. Even though he's just an attractive, silent-but-deadly, tall-ass guy whom I fucking envy. He stole my crush and 2 months ago, claims hes liked me 3 years. Now I don't know what to do and I can't stop thinking of him. I get shy around him, the typical girl shit (no offense again ladies). My name's Raphael (Yes, the Bible or whatever. :c) So I saw the comments from my previous post and I took some of them to heart. That also wasn't the first time I asked the internet for help, I've used a shit ton of other websites, EVEN SIRI (Reddit and Discord as well cause I was desperate ASF). I confronted him at fuckin 3 am this morning, cause I just couldn't hold it back. And since you guys keep saying I'm like living a Wattpad story or a fanfic, I'll describe the conversation in that format. (Third person, limited)

Lying in the bed, Raphael just couldn't hold back the suppressed emotions which he had kept throughout the night. Trying to find the right time to confront his feelings made him feel like he was walking through a sea of LEGOS. He got up from his mattress, trying to pull him back, and left his own bedroom. Feeling tempted, he walked down the hallway to the forbidden door. 'Too late to turn back now' he thought to himself. He slowly opened the door, hoping to not wake up his parents through the restless night. He entered his stepbrother's room, heart beating fast. He quietly closes the door behind him and sneaks up to his stepbrother's bed. Raphael sees him sleeping, facing the other direction. He gulped, hoping to hold in the sound, he gets in the bed with him. Rests next to him and tries to think of what to say. Only letting out, "Hey, dude." No answer. He then hears a mumble, "Yeah?" There really was no turning back now, "I know my answer." His brother quickly turns towards him, Raphael feeling all nervous and shy. Raphael faces the other way, but his brother pulls him in. "I lidkelbjklhask.zxdnbjwname yousjadlsa tosbajkclhsnkl" He felt embarrassed, "What did you say?" Raphael didn't want to say it again, feeling shy. "I like you too." His brother didn't say anything. Until, "Look at me." Raphael turns over to his brother's side of the bed and faces him. He was glad there weren't any lights on, so his brother couldn't see how red he looks. "Can I hug you?" "Yeah. You can."

OKAY AND NO, THAT WAS ALL WE DID. I STG. THIS ISN'T A YAOI MANGA. I LIKE HIM, AND OH GOD GET READY FOR THE FAMILY DRAMA.
But for real though, we're going to take things slow. We're not going to fucking have sex the first day. In fact, I'd rather be top. But I'm guessing he won't agree with that. :c
Wish my ass good luck in the future.

ok, ima be honesty wit you. like im not kidding, but i just need help rn.

So I'm currently 18 and 3 years ago my dad met this woman, her name's Veronica. They got married and now I officially have a new step-mom. Little did I know, she brought the Devil incarnate with her. Her son, now my step-brother, is this tall attractive dude who I've envied ever since. I don't hate him, but he stole my crush. cough cough. Now I'm fairly tall, 5'10 but that's not enough to compare to him. My dad claims he loves us equally, but sometimes I get jealous. sigh. Anyway, 2 months ago, he told me likes me. "What. ME?" "Yeah, you. I've liked you for 3 years. You don't know have to tell me your answer now." I seriously don't know what to do, I'm not even kidding as well. I don't know what I did to make him like me. I'm not like homophobic, but it's been uncomfortable. I don't know what to do. And recently, I just feel nervous and shy around him. Like a fucking girl who sees her crush passing by (no offense ladies, it's okay to do that). I keep thinking of him. I don't want to admit since people might think it's weird. But it's the 21st century, we have internet so I'll just use this for answers. Maybe I should see a therapist, whatever I don't know. By the way, I'm guy.