Beautiful..

I wonder if u were happy that ur ex boyfriend broke up with u to live with his boyfriend, why did u date him from the begning???

Sorry for my late reply...
I havent been able to connect to the internet hehe
Btw, nice to meet you (●'◡'●)ﾉ

About your question "why did I dated my ex, while he broke up with me to live with his man..?"
Actually, its hard to answer...

I did love him, a long time ago.
I was deeply in love with him, and deeply cherish the time& feeling i once had with him..

Though, not long after we broke up, i regreted having to accept him when he asked me out, and regreted knowing how much I used to love him very much.
He was my upper classmen, one of the handsomest dudes in school, while I used to be the school yankee, and rhe only one he's really close to.

We dated, after more than 6 years of friendship, which lasted for 3 months, and ended our relationship never really speaking to each other (we rarely meet up, and maybe he felt quilty to me..)
This is the part i regret having dating him back then.

Well, apparently, he broke up with me because he cant stand keep lying to me about the fact that he was dating me while dating another man behind my back.
I actually suspect a few things before.., like the fact he prefer to give a ride home to other guys while I (his own girlfriend) have to go home alone. Also like the fact we never really hold hands or kiss..
He told me that his boyfriend lives pretty far away (2 hours trip in distance).
And, his pretty lonely..
With me by his side, he seeks & received the comfort he wants.
(I know.., i'm actually being used by him..)
But, maybe its also I was blinded by my love for him...

In short, we broke up after he told me that he was gay (i thought it was a lie, till he showed me his photo of him kissing his man.. ==")

Up to now, he still sometimes calls& text me..
Most of them is bout his important dates.with his man...
Seeing how happy he is, I couldn't help smiling sometimes... (▰˘◡˘▰)

So, if u ask me, "why did i date him?"
The right answer is probably is that I used to love & care very much for him.
And "am i happy?", well, I believed i was happy about it..

Pathetic as it can be, i cant never forget him, he is my fist boyfriend and also my first&longest unrequired love.
It wasnt my first, but I enjoyed it.. (not that I want to experince it again though..)
So, u can say, I once fell into a burning yet lonesome love...
Are u angry with the pathetic me? (Please do give answer& why.., so i can learn from this mistake..)

Btw, TQ for the concern haha.. I didn't expect someone will actually ask me this question haha, since not much people really care for simple (or maybe stupid) comments like this hehe..
This totally made my day hehe (≧∀≦)

And, if I'm not rude, how is your love life?
Perhaps u experinced the same thing or even worse?
If u dont mind, please share with me^^
I'd like to hear more from u (it would be lovely if we can be friends!) (●￣(ｴ)￣●)

Nice to miss u too
To be honest, I was pissed when I was reading ur comment. No offense but I hate how he dated u for 6 years and then tell u that he's dating another man. If he knows that he's gay why the hell is he dating a girl? Anyway, I didn't see u in my life but I can say that u sound nice person by ur comment and how ur happy about him though he left u, I rarely see that.
About asking my love life, I don't date anyone and I got no time for dating lol

Sorry again for my late reply..
I had work pilling up like everest infront of my eyes (i'm being dramatic hehe..)
I missed u^^

I'm very greatfull to have someone caring for me from so far away haha!
I loved how the internet connects people in our lives.
Simply love it!

Okay.., well, it's not that I never get pissed from my ex.
I tried to think of a few ways to make him dissapear from my sight..
Like choke him, poison him.., or maybe sent him to Bermuda Triangle or something..
But, God kept me in super-patient-level...
Well, maybe coz we've been together for a long time, i've gotten used to my 'dead heart' case..
But, i do still feel sad& sorry for myself..
The fact that i still cared for him left me with the feeling like i'm waisting a few years of my youth... (not that i'm old though haha!)

Well, if u ask.me.. i dont think i know why he decided to date me..
I mean, i feel very defeated to have been compared to a guy.. (i think u know what i mean..)
But, if its based on our relationship, i believed he needed someone who can gives him affection& care& attention. And also someone who he can give those feelings too..
I think, he.is not yet matured to face the deals of having a relationship..
But, who knows now... haha... (▰˘◡˘▰)

Btw, its actually sad that i dont really know u in my life, but i believed that you're a very nice& caring person.
If not, you would have ignore my weird comment haha!
Your replies really made me feel a whole lot better, after this few years..
I'm very hapoy & greatfull. TQ

So, you are technically living a happy-single-live?
Haha, we're not too different in that!
I'm enjoying my days finishing my work& hang out with my friends (not forget to read awesome yaois in my free time haha!)
But i believe that when the time to love comes, u'll know it hehe...

Hey, maybe we're not too far apart from each other?
I'm from Indonesia^^, Bandung to be specific...
Where are you from?
Maybe u can visit me or i'll come to visit u someday!

Reply soon ;D

We both late at replaying lol

I mean nice to meet to u. I'm sorry I type so fast.
He shouldn't have date if he loves someone else but since ur happy for him then that's fine but it ain't fine to me lol
I'm from US so I don't think we can meet each other lol I mean I live so far away from where u live and that's sad we only can talk by typing.

Do u talk with his boyfriend?
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These comments made me cry even more after reading this manga. I didnt know internet can be such a beatiful place.. Thankyou for sharing your experience and i was amazed how beautiful your personality is. And i am sure you will find a beatiful partner in future. :)

First, I AM SORRY TO HAVE REPLY YOU SO LATE!!
I'm not that much of an internet person.., so i rarely checked my stats online.
Please forgive me.. *bows*

Btw, when I suddenly saw that there was someone else that commented my comment was pretty exciting.
This comment was written based at that time after i finished reading this beautiful manga. It felt very beautiful. How two guys can have to that extend of happiness..
Which in my case, maybe, how my boyfriend's situation..

I have to be true here.., I mean.., i do hate him in many ways.
I hate that he dated me, to be his cover, while he's dating another guy.
I hate that he & i have to broke up because of some other guy that i know nothing about.
I also hate the fact that, after we broke up, i still very much deeply in love with him.
He was my 1st love...
And just to be honest, I too always wanted to have that amazingly sweet love story...
Which until now i still never experince (haha).

Believe it or not, he left a great impression in me.
He, undeniablely, is my 1st guy i ever dated.. (we didnt do H things yet haha!)
But, he actually made me totally afraid to get hooked on another relationship..
I blame him to have partly destroyed me on that part...

But, we breaking up was a good choice..
Sooner or later, i do have to let him go.. (coz he has no intention of breaking up with his man... ckckck)
I feel much better..
After nearly 5 years after actually haha..

Honestly, i'mvery jealous of my ex & his man right now!
A few weeks ago he texted me to ask bout my daily life & stuff..
And then, he added that he just had a very ROMANTIC CANDLE LIGHT DINNER TOGETHER!!
Honestly, I do not need those infos!!
(But i forgive him& his man coz they are both very handsome..(they both look like thai handsome hot dudes!))

Back on topic, TQ SO MUCH FOR THE WISH & COMPLIMENT!!
I can't really tell whether my personality is good or not actually, but i am greatful you ghink of me that highly...
And of course, I hope (everyday of my life) to have a far better partner !!

You too!!
Are you in a great condition lately?
I'm kinda curious.. hehehe..
If you dont mind, tell me bout yourself more^^
Or problems that you have..
I'm a pretty great listener^^ (my friends says so)
I hope to hear more from you soon!! ヾ(☆▽☆)