SPOILERS: don’t read if you don’t want to be spoiled on the ending. read it after it’s done or something.
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I’m not sure if you’ve read the part where she says that she just accepted Asuka because she was to be wed to him. Like it was planned by her parents and she just accepted that she should love him because she was engaged to him, without questioning her own heart. And Asuka learns that he never loved her but just the idea of her where he wanted to put her in a cage and never let her go or something (figuratively speaking) which was kinda dark in my opinion. I personally don’t think she ever loved him but she felt like she could freely indulge in her own lust with him since they’re already to be married whereas she can’t with Aoi. I also agree that it was lust at first but i think it turned into something more. I personally didn’t like how she gave in to her lust with Aoi while she was engaged, like that’s just ugh. I get she needed to kiss him but they went too far in my opinion.
Thanks, I won’t bother reading the rest of the story lol
Just for clarification: she dropped her bag of medicine when they were walking to through the mountain area before the rain. The ingredient that he was out to get was for her meds. He couldn't get that ingredient b/c the bridge was out. I'm not defending her, or him, or the situation. I'm just saying...that's why she doesn't have meds. Other than that, she annoys me.
I've finished reading this and I'm still team Asuka. I just love his badass character (づ￣ ³￣)づ
It’s Asuka for me. All day, every day. After binging this, this is what I understand of her situation:
Aoi = she’s in lust with him and is in denial about it, but she doesn’t fight it much because she pretends to only do it because it’s necessary
SIDE NOTE: When this story began, she said she had medicine for her weird shxt, but now all of a sudden, she never has any and only Aoi can help? How did she live all these years without that? Is that a plot hole or...?
Asuka = she’s in love with him and therefore genuinely enjoys their embrace, even though she knows it’s not proper
SIDE NOTE: I lowkey want Asuka to find himself a better woman since he’s my favorite and I don’t feel she deserves him