I think you're whole uncomfortable thing about asashi is that because now that masato does so much for him,, you wihs that asashi would give back just as much,, since it seems to always be masato thats overflowing wiht selfish affection,,,,
However not everyone is as open when in live,, and asashi does have his own way of being affectionate)(like choosing the bento over expensive meat),,
But still I wish he would show affection more openly sonmasato who is always desperately giving affection and love like no tomorrow could have a taste of his own feelings and just be spoiled you know
He's been trying very hard since forever
And I wish asashi would be the one chasing so masato can learn that it's OK to voice his feelings and inner displeasures
I felt especially sad for the birthday thing,,,, because I experienced something similar too,,, cz you know when you are all enthusiastic about making others feel special and happy by celebrating the day they came into exwistance,, even if u don't care about it you atleast send a simple happy birthday on text or somehtting just for the sake of the other person.... And then when other people who are closest to you don't even bother with the simple line of happy birthday,,, its a hit to your self esteem,, and then there is this feeling of oh well so we have to let go and compromise again,,,
It's really sad when I think of masato, bacause his closest erson to hi heart did not know his birthday (I assume cz he would've noticed it was in that month at least even before it came, or atleast after it came if he actually forgot). And had to be told by other people,, while masaato was celebrated on thta day by acquantices
It's always masato who wants to know more about the other person,,,, which at this pint I feel like masato is just thinking thta as long as asashi loves him it's fine for these things
The sole fact that he had to tell himself that it's OK that hes spending the night of his birthday alone cz asaahi is busy literly means he's bothered deep down by it and has to convince himself otherwise to feel better about it by compromising
Oh my this turned kinda deep long rant lol
It's more heartbreaking when masato says
Larry my mind is so full of asashi..
I forgot my own brithday
Yeah, this is too much for Masato. I feel like having part 2 of this Manga is definite. And it's even more heartbreaking because we haven't heard Asahi saying "I love you" to Masato atleast once.
And this type of relationship will tire out the giving party more sooner than later. If Asahi didn't take a step, there's a chance if Masato finds another guy who he think he can love and show more affection than Asahi then...would it all be good?
Masato always compromise and we don't like, especially me, I don't really like it. Relationship should be balance, giving and receiving. And I feel like Masato finds this okay because of the past wrongdoings of him. But he deserves to be happy, he's really worth it.
This breaks my heart, especially when Masato is blushing for every small things I didn't find to be blushing off. Haha. He's very simple and low-maintenance. I hope Asahi show more affection or else--who cares about those kinds of Seme? Who cares if you're the main character? Screw off!
Oh well, this relationship really makes me feel uneasy. I feel like Masato just settled down because he'd gone mature, like settling for less eventhough you are worth than more. We, do this a lot when we grew older, comprimising, adjusting, adopting... <because this is the best way we can do>
...but I'm not in anyways against their relationship or anything about the story. But I just felt that this is quiet depressing for us readers. Like who wants to see some 'receiving the end of the stick' relationship?
Of course, we would feel bad. When reading, we want to see both parties filled with love. That's the least we can do, the only thing a fictional character can be happy are through fictional characters as well. That's why, seeing this breaks my heart. I want to see Masato happy more than this. <I, atleast want to see a character development for Asahi. It always feels like it's hard to favor him out. Like he always makes me feel uncomfortable.>
You know those type of relationship? 'You do this because you want, I didn't ask you to.' Those that one sidedly receive. (But I know he's not like that, but he didn't show any opposing side too)
But thinking of it, I would do the same as Masato. My feelings are mine alone. If I feel happy for being in loved, then it's fine. That's the kind of feeling we want to last long. We don't feel other emotions, we only feel ours. And Masato do this because it makes him happy the most. (Though, we know there are plenty of ways to make him happy more.)
...when I think that, none of them are about to break apart of each other, then it's fine...right? 'Love is not an emotion, it's your existence' (I heard about this.)