Ughh cringe,sorry but ml is not likable to me atleast :)

I didn't write this spoiler btw, just shortened it. I get how u dont like the ml, neither do I but I just felt as if u shud kno that his reason is kinda justified?

Reference: https://www.novelupdates.com/series/my-childhood-friend-the-demon-knight-hates-me/

Why hes acting the way he is:

has a demon contract forced upon him when young by a woman who wants revenge. He literally can't admit his feelings for the FL because the conditions of the contract is that in return for strength and power, when he has someone he loves from the bottom of his heart, he has to kill his beloved with his own hands as payment for receiving strength from the demon. ML didn't even think anything of this when he heard about the contract as a young boy, thinking that he wouldn't love anyone. But when he does develop feelings for FL, the demon started speaking to him and telling him to kill FL as payment, and his body started moving against his own will. He started denying his feelings to the demon, suppressing himself through self-harm and avoidance of FL etc. Still, he couldn't give up on his wish to stay with FL and searched for ways to be with her despite the contract. Then the birthday incident happened and he deeply regretted hurting FL with words he didn't actually mean. He gave up on his "selfish" hope of staying by FL side, pledging never to let the demon kill her. ALSO. The contract can't be mentioned to anyone else so he can't consult with anyone else. Of course, talking directly to FL is also a no-go since his desire to kill her amplifies in her presence (there's a separate reason as to why he can later on join FL as her guard)

I love them because when that happens i always shove it into their face and say "HAH! SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU NOW! WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO HUH?!" Hehe