i’m a little bit confused

I really don't think so .... but I read this like 3 months ago

I think ryan implied that he was raped, that glen offered him to be in that film as a way for him to get over his fear of being raped

From what I understood, Ryan was raped, and then (maybe after some time) stumbled upon GlennMcQueen(dot)com and applied. When he got accepted, Glenn had this (quite ridiculous and insensitive, really) concept of the rape scene where Ryan was involved, made it a porn movie and voila! Money is all over the accounts! Though, that went too detrimental to ryan and the other victims of the actual rapist because, hey, who wants to relive their darkest days and others make it something profitable for themselves?

hmm they never did say ryan was raped
irl though i always thought ryan accepted to do it (probably cause of money) then as it was progressing he started feeling uncomfortable and the whole acting was starting to feel a little too real for him and then he developed a fear of being raped so he blamed mcqueen for it (=・ω・=) because if we go along with what you wrote, you implied mcqueen filmed the movie with another guy but he actually did it with ryan and i doubt ryan will film a movie where he's reliving his own rape scene

This is what i understood too, that ryan was raped before and then mcqueen literally made a 'documentary porn' (idk if that makes sense) about it.

But then some people said something different, and Im kinda confused (￣∇￣")

Umm, not quite sure if I delivered my thought across (also for this one) but what I was speculating about was that Ryan was raped (by, as I see it, a serial rapist), McQueen took it as an opportunity, and worked with Ryan and some more people (porn actors) to do a sort of “documentary” reliving the experiences of the victims of the rapist.


Though, yeah, I also kinda see your point. Makes me wonder if I saw the manga on the right light.

i understand what you're saying just i still don't think ryan will agree to film a rape scene if he was actually raped before but the author never clarified :( so we can't say for sure

True. Well, that makes a good-written plot, don’t you think? Us readers speculating.