lol. I am also really anti-yaoi rape, but you just can't get over the hotness of the scenes here. The mangaka didn't expect people to take it seriously but it got popular so she had to continue it with the rape beginning included. Just don't take the seriously, just like any yaoi rape manga, really.
I mean DAT SMUT MAAN.
But I totally get you. It was a big turn-off for me, too.
I know I am being silly considering that about 80% of Yaoi have non-con or at least dub-con and I even enjoy and like some of them (mostly due to nostalgica filter and/or extreme hotness) but that's just how it is at the moment for me XD.
Thanks for explaining the origin of the manga to me. Kinda reminds me of "Viewfinder" which was also supposed to be just a one-shot at first.
Eh, not exactly something I can enjoy since I don't like the whole Yaoi-rape thing that's going on the first chapters. That's just me though, don't mind me passing through ┑(￣Д ￣)┍