So sad, like I'm (almost) alone

The main story is really special and well written to me. I will explain briefly: It's not a special story or anything, but we're discovering the story with the seme's mind, not really niew but not common neiter (well the question is not really seme's mind but the strong/strong minded one of the couple, the hard head... the one who takes the thing in charges you know, is it clear or not? 8/). And above all, it's the first time I read a yaoi where I [[SEE]] the behavior of a character who's falling in love changes (We see Astuki changes right before our eyes, well it's Ryouji eyes and his mind and so on)
Well my point of view is more complex but it's too long and yeah, maybe I'm overthinking it, while I'm smoking here XDD

AAAANNNNDD, Ryouji is fckg CANON. Yeah it's super important. XD
I would liked to see them fuck hard (sorry for the primative mind and such way to speak)!! Mmmh, they're not like they'll "fuck hard", it's too much, AH! I know, more like rock their body all night, sometimes lovely make it with such sweetness (like their first), and rock really hard and a little naugty times to times XD I'm drawn in my fantasies, sorry I digressed the topic...
Hum, hum, so I mean, Ryouji would be a really good seme, I don't see him idiotly hard or dirty talking to Atsuki but more like just he would be really skilled, attentive and *high concentrate* (like he does for the kiss XD) in bed, so the way they fuck would be REALLY HOT AND EXCITING and not just naughty because it's like "you say no but you want it in here, uh?" (too common perhaps it's becoming boring, maybe I just read too much). And yeah, like Yamima said, Ryouji looks like he got stamina, and because the fragile but horny Astuki (well maybe not HORNY but he sure loves sex because he's always looking for someone) has anemia problem, they will do it like they were always in heat and Atsuki will often faint (there will be a realistic reason here, not like in some other manga's I've read. I have the impression it's happening all the time, it's not normal to faint so easily, I don't understand why the seme doesn't take his partner by a doctor, at least call a doctor. I mean me, I would be freaked if this would have happened to my boy or girl, and so more if it's happening a lot!... on the other side, I can understand it if it's while a rape, but weirdly I've never have the chance to read a yaoi where a uke faint because of a rough rape), so yeah this couple could be so hot... Yeah. I know. I really want a next tome (preferably as my fantaisies XD) . Sorry I think it was too long and restless XDDDD Thank to you, yes honey YOU, if you read it till the end, brave one here XD