rant

i feel like if the author was going somewhere with this we would get some of seungho's POV, like nothing can justify what hes doing right now but at least seeing WHY he is doing this would be nice. i get the whole part of his character is that hes not allowed to show vunerability etc etc but at this point, a little bit feels necessary. because right now all we can do is interpret, and i cant see this as anything other than the author's sexual fantasy...just any sort of thought from him seems to be the minimum she could do for us right now. i feel like she is trying to build up this facade of his to tear down all at once but how can she expect ppl to have the patience for that? when seungho was seeing other nobles again and ignoring nakyum like 10 chapters ago she didnt explain why and she didnt show us any of his thoughts when the gangr*pe nearly happened either, yet expected us to empathise/move on. originally, thats what i liked about the series bc it gives u room to think, but now this is getting silly. any interpretation i see now just feels like a reach and it just doesnt feel fun to read the chapters anymore, how does she expect us to know wtaf is going on. i know shes gonna do what we want eventually, but like i said...a few hints/thoughts or something for now would be great. i cannot believe the whole build up to this assassination was simply for a r*pe scene, it has got to pay off eventually.