Why is it so difficult

hi! smut:
http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/814500/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/otoko_ni_dake_saku_mesu_no_hana/
^anything by this author
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/the_science_room/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/present_wa_santa_san_de_onegaishimasu/
^anything by this author
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/free_dj_futari_no_makoto/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/tiger_bunny_dj_lip_link/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ao_no_exorcist_dj_distract/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/meitantei_conan_dj_conc_zero/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/durarara_dj_wasou_shizuo_ni_bukkake/
^gangbang
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kesshoku_impulse/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/shasei_kanri_dou_deshou/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kusottare/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/momihami/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kalimeris_porno/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/yuri_on_ice_katsuki_yuuri_no_chokuchou_ni_vodka_o_sosogikonde_xxx_saseru_doujinshi/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bearsong/

if its hard to make friends irl you can start on the bumble app! its very easy to talk to people on there and you can add ur interests in your bio to match with people that have similar interests :) also since its a dating/friend app you can choose when you want to meet with them irl or if you just want to talk online. i made a couple friends on there so it definitely works lol