I thought it was this: http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/nii_chan_harada/ for a sec but idk
these are the only info the original person who's searching gave:
"Ok so I can't find this really messed up yaoi about a guy getting kidnapped by another guy who I think was blonde? but I can't be too sure. Anyways, so he gets taken to the guy's apartment and that place is like made for isolation, like I remember it being kinda dirty and the windows were covered in newspapers so you couldn't look out.
Then, he gets raped repeatedly. I can't really remember much else except the part were it turns out the guy who kidnapped the uke was kidnapped instead of the uke when he was a kid by some pedophile and the same things had happened to him. So he had basically been living in the same apartment were he was kidnapped and then raped by some pedophile for years. The pedophile was eventually arrested or killed, can't remember which and so the seme had been living alone in that apartment for a while until he saw the uke by chance off the street and remembered him from when he was kidnapped as a child.
The whole story ends with the uke and seme deciding to accept each other I guess? and they grow old together. We get a scene were to two of them sit and fish together while reminiscing about their complicated past. Idk, it was a kinda messed up, stockholm syndrome kinda story so... I just really can't find it and it's making me so frustrated!!"
ps. apparently the seme also has a long unkempt hair
please reply on this link so that the person could also see your comments hehe http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangatopic/9060339/?page=1
Arigatouuu~~
Is this one: http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/soine_lovers/
Chapter 3 and 4
To the elder yaoi-loving people of Mangago, who are great at finding yaoi contents and are like the librarians of the yaoi world, please help us pheasants to retrieve the answer to this mind-boggling mystery.
Here's the link: http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangatopic/9060339/?page=1