Trying to find a manga helpp

Im pretty sure it was shounen ai, otherwise ig itd be yaoi? i remember it bc it was actually based on part of the author’s life as a gay man. i only remember a part where he and his friend are drunk at home or smth, and he almost kisses the friend, but doesnt. And hes too shy to come out to any of his friends bc they acted homophobic in high school, but in the end he reveals he ended up meeting a few of those friends years later in gay bars and they were actually gay too. I think the author drew a lot of bara lmaoo if anyone can help me id appreciate it