Can someone help me find this Chinese manhua

I remember there was a male mc who was in love with this ML who was a soldier in an army but back then he thought he was disgusting but no matter what he still disregarded him. But one day mc, decided to follow and went through all the hardships and became a soldier but he mute. But there was a Taoist that came to the army and then suddenly an army was attacked and the MC saved the Taoist with the arrow to the shot to the chest. But when he was about to die, he had been saved as a soul that doesn’t remember mL